“Alright give me a hug, and make sure you take care of yourself. Glen and Ashley said they will come see you soon.”

A small smile crept its way onto my face. I was in a bad place but two of my favorite people would come and make it better. I hugged my mom through the bars and watched her walk away. If I was ever really alone I never felt it until now.

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Two weeks later it was the day of my hearing and I didn’t really care. Glen never showed up but my mom said he just couldn’t bring himself to see me like this. It’s understandable. But Ashley…she never showed, never called. I guess she really didn’t care about me anymore. She moved on to better things, why dwell on my pathetic ass?

Thinking about her with Aiden while I was sitting in jail hurt too much. Luckily the bailiff came and got me so I could finally hear just how much shit I was in.

Judge Wilkins came out and my head dropped. Here was a woman who knew me and my family all too well and I’m positive she would not be pleased to see me.

“Spencer carlin, are you serious? All I can say to you is how extremely saddened I am to see you here and under these circumstances. I guess it wasn’t enough that your father killed himself in his own drunk driving fit but now the trait has been passed on to you and what do you do? Why you go and one up you dad and kill someone else, a friend if I’m not mistaken?”

I don’t know what hurts worse. Sitting here listening to her talk bad about my father, or listening to her compare me to him knowing that everything she says is right?

“No judge…you are not mistaken. She was my friend.” I have got to be the most shiteous friend on earth.

“Really? So you go around murdering all your friends with cars?” What? Did she really say that?

I couldn’t help it. At this point tears were pouring down my face and I was sobbing hard. I didn’t think it was possible for anyone to produce this many tears but I’m sure I’ve reached a record by now.