Stepping back I let Henry walk first as I cast a glance at Helena. “I am gonna stay here, this is a matter between Henry and you, that is what Tina wants” she gives me a quick before she steps back leaving me with no chance to correct her. I turn around and follow the stressed Japanese. We round the corner and is guided into a office. We both sit down starring daggers at each other. “I am Mrs. Kennard’s doctor, you are both equal in these decisions” he gives each of an admonishing look. I swallow hard and for once Henry gives me a look of consent. “Tina’s car swerved and hit a telephone pole. She has gained severe head injuries, we want to go in and reduce pressure. However the operation itself is very risky and I must warn you it is a death rate” I find myself straighten up. “If we don’t go in there is a much higher death risk” he leans forward and looks intently at us. “If we go in she will probably loose abilities but if we don’t go in it might be that she will recover without disabilities. Do you both understand?”

I clench my fist as the options betray my mind, I Bette Elizabeth Porter are not God. With two shaking hands I lift my tired body out of the chair as I stagger over to the window. Henry has his face hidden in his hands but the way his body heaves, he bears a heavy heart right now. “She is the mother of my children” he screams out pounding his fist into table, sending the doctor’s coffee pot onto the floor. For while there, for a millisecond I only see a vulnerable man looking very defeated. I rack my brain trying to figure out if Tina ever said anything concerning that. As if Henry read my mind, his choked up voice breaks the silent. “Did she ever say anything to you, about that, in the time you were together” I end my journey of the small office. “No, never” I sit down again. “I think we should let them operate” his gentle words fall into the heavy atmosphere. “I agree” I close my mouth as soon as the words leave. A type of silents fall over us, a type of uncertainty.