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    A Life I Never Meant Chapter Seventeen

    Story written on July 12, 2006 by citygirl75.
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    “I miss her already.” – Bette Porter.

    “No, it’s not OK. I don’t know what I’m going to do without her. How am I going to get by without her.”

    “You won’t believe it now but somehow you’ll find a way, and I’m going to be here with you all of the way.” replies Kit, trying to ease some of the hurt.

    “I thought she was getting better. I’d even started to prepare the house for her so that things would be easy while I was at work, and now…”

    “And now we have to try to figure out a way to honour her in the way that she would have wanted.”

    “I miss her already.”

    “I know Bette.” says Kit, shaking her head, but trying to remain strong for me.

    “The doctor said that they tried to do everything for her but they were too late, the damage had already been done and there was nothing that they could do to reverse it. If only they had known sooner.”

    “Try not to think about the things that might have been.”

    “I can’t help it.” I say, feeling a whole new wave of tears welling to the surface.

    “I know.” replies Kit, pulling me into her arms again.

    After that passage of complete desolation passes I make myself get up from the couch, suddenly getting a sense of overwhelming claustrophobia at being in this office, or in fact, anywhere were there are four walls holding me in.

    “Kit, I have to get out of here.”

    “OK, but I’m coming with you. You’re not leaving my sight today.”

    “Thanks.” I say, almost smiling at the fierce way that Kit expresses her love for me.

    As we walk out I half listen to Kit explain to James that I won’t be back for the rest of the day, and probably the rest of the week. She doesn’t say why but I can tell by the look on his face that he knows not to argue with Kit when she’s in a determined mood like she is now. I don’t really care whether he knows or not I just have to get some fresh air.

    “Where to?” asks Kit, as we walk towards her car.

    “Anywhere, somewhere quiet, away from here.”

    Kit leads me to her car, as I don’t really even feel capable of putting one foot in front of the other. Trying to distract myself, again, from all the immediate problems I think about my afternoon at the cemetery with Alice and how I looked after her, and now here I am being looked after in the same way. Then I think about how I told her that I wished that I could cry like she did that day. Next time, I’ll be careful what I wish for.

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    2. OMG! No, no, no, no! You can`t let Shane die… my god, I read the docter part about 20 times and then still couldn`t believe that this was happening! It was an awesome chapter though, really liked it … and it was definitely the first story there were tears formed in my eyes ;_; Please update soon!

    3. That came out of left field in fact it come from another planet!!! Totally not expecting that! Okay I’m now taking what ever I thought was going to happen and throwing it out of my head! My mind is now clear ready for whatever you throw at us! Post soon!

    7. Yeah, I definitely didn’t see that coming. Amazing, as always, Citygirl. Memo to self: crying at work is completely inappropriate. So, no matter how tempting it is to read fanfic on the job, sometimes it’ll have to wait until you get home. Please, please, please post soon!

    8. wasn’t expecting this at all, is it possibly a mistake and someone else died with the same name? holy cow…i’m still trying to comprehend this

    9. WOW! I certainly was bushwhacked by that development. I don’t want B & T to reunite b/c Tina feels sorry for Bette but b/c she realizes how much she still loves her.

    10. Well that’s life, ever-changing and unpredictable. You’ve captured it well, let them not waist any more precious time, resolution is overdue for them and death definitely gives a kick in the pant.

    11. You lulled me into forgeting the foreshadowing of Shane’s death earlier in the story. This was a really sad chapter. I hate to say it as a die hard Tibetter, but it really puts things into perspective (still want them together tho’ :)). Great, sad, gut-wrenching chapter.

    12. Lamentamini…my hand is raised..Citygirl got us good. I have all ready been crying all day..didn’t need this. It was a great chapter as usual..just the wrong day for me. thanks and please post soon.

    13. Totally unexpected but at the same time it should have been expected. The previous chapter was almost a precursor to this utterly devastating chapter. Damn, Shane’s dead? The entire build up has made this all the more heartbreaking. Alice will be ripped to pieces first Dana and now Shane. You have truly taken on a monumental task with this story; so many layers and feelings. Wonderful stuff city….wonderful

    15. omfg, WTF, what a bummer, is this for real? is this some sick joke? all my initial reactions, not Shane, there is no Bette story without Shane…..omg, omfg….I dunno about this s/l…..it’s too much for me, like it’s real not just a story cuz I love Shane and Bette and Shane’s relationship more than I love Bette and Tina’s even tho I want them 2gether; I just always loved me some Shane and Bette, they were just always there for each other; omfg, you’ve put me in a spin!!!!!!

    20. OhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygodOhmygod. I totally undersand why Shane is dead. It take for us human beens this kind of events to take drastic measures abput our lives and what we want form our life. Excellent chapter, as always. a loyal fan.

    21. I think we were all blindsided by this turn of events. So sad if this is the pivotal point in bringing about B&T’s long awaited talk. Regrets, regrets and more regrets!! Will something good come out of this? I guess I’ll just have to wait. Please post again soon!!!

    23. Talk about having the wind knocked out of you. Bette and Shane helped each other through probably the toughest time in the lives. They became the inseperable duo of heart ache. Now part of the duo is gone. Shane would have given anything for Bette and Tina to sit down and talk. She knew that both of them still loved the other. What nobody knew was that Shane would give the ultimate sacrifice for them to have that one more chance of getting their love back. It is up to them now.

    24. Citygirl! You made me cry and that is so not cool. Oh my god this was touching! I read this whole story with my mouth open like ‘did i just read what I thought I read’ your writing brings out so many emotions…you’re good. Can’t wait for Tina & Alice’s reactions.

    25. ok….it was just a dream right? You can’t take another favorite character away from us!!!! Alright, I’m calming down because it’s just a DREAM!!!!!!!!!

    29. I definitely didn’t consider Shane’s death when I read the summary. Okay show of hands. How many people thought the summary was in reference to missing Tina? Or heck even Alice. *raises hand*

    30. CG, What a stormer that was! Talk about pulling the rug from your readers. I am completely gutted that Shane died. Can’t say you didn’t keep it real though. It was brilliant to see Kit be there for Bette and help each other begin the grieving process. That was an explosive way to bring Bette and Tina back in the same city. It will give them reason to evaluate their lives and realize what is important and wh they most desire. This is going to be so sad. Thank you for this tumultuous tale. Your Loyal Fan.

    33. Crap! Didn’t see that. I was duped – Thought she was talking about T. This will get them to talk I guess. Not a happy wizard right now, but I do still love this story.

    34. i really didn’t expected that at all ! Well, this is the end of a period of time, maybe the beginning of something new ? Too bad Shane left though…Will Bette be able to move on ? Hope so !! Great Great story !

    39. oh gutwrenching! great chapter tho!! have i mentioned lately how much i love your story?!?! well…i love it! and needless to say i can’t wait to read more! =)

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