“I…I’m ready to talk.”

“Now?” Ashley rubs her eyes tiredly.

“Yes now.” I reply. If I don’t get it out now I might never.

“Spence it’s,” She takes a look back in her apartment. “Two o’clock in the morning.”

Heh, almost forgot about that little detail.

                “Yeah, I know. I had a whole bunch of caffeine.” I couldn’t stop drinking coffee; I have so much energy right now it’s not even funny. I mean I can’t even stay still.

                “Oh my God, did I wake you?” I ask noticing she hasn’t even let me in yet.

                “No, no…come in.” She opens the door wider, pulling me inside. It’s cold, I mean it was cold in the hallway too but it’s practically a freezer in here.

                “Do you have coffee by any chance?” I ask because, hey you can never have enough right?

                “Um no…not at this hour…but I think you’ve had enough.” We make our way to her couch sitting not too close, but not too far away either.

                “There’s never enough.” I reply, fidgeting with my hands. My knees won’t stop bouncing up and down, and she notices.

                “Spence, calm down.” She places her hand on my knee, stopping all of my movements. I take a few moments to compose myself, and then look into Ashley’s worried eyes.

                “Sorry.”

                “You know you don’t have to do this right now right?” Yes I do. There won’t be any other time for me.

If you haven’t noticed, I’m pretty prone to chickening out.

                “I know, but I think this needs to be done…sooner than later.” I reply, situating myself on her very comfortable couch.

                “Okay then…I’m listening.” She leans back into the cushions, making herself comfortable for the long conversation that’s about to ensue.

Did it just get colder? How does she sleep in this?

                “Ashley, its freezing in here.” I voice my thoughts.

                “Yeah, sorry…I don’t sleep with the heat on.” She gives me an apologetic smile.

                “Do you have like, a quilt or something?” I ask. Something’s got to warm me up right?