“I wanted to die” she turns around to go again but I turn her around and push her to the door. We are eye to eye nose to nose… mouth to mouth… my naked body to her full cloth body…. she has this look in her eyes that are telling me to make it all right…

“I cant help you if you don’t tell me what’s wrong?” all of a sudden she’s mad. But she doesn’t say anything and neither did I. few minutes go by.

“It’s like I can’t breathe…. It’s like I can’t see anything. Nothing but her… It’s like I can’t think, without her interrupting my every thoughts…In my dreams. Its like I’m not me” she started crying again.

“wh-who is her?”

“Its like I’m lost, if I’m giving up slowly… It’s like…. Like she’s a ghost that’s haunting me……and wont leave me alone…”

“Carm…?” I really don’t know what to say to her

“I know the voices in my head, are mine alone… but- but I cant give her up…. And I can’t change my ways if I don’t give her up now”  she says finally like coming in to terms on her own…  then she pushed her tongue in to my mouth kissing me hard and pushing me backwards until my back touches the bed. She climbed over me and started kissing my neck and started going down but I stopped her and rolled her around so I was on top now. I took her jacket off to find out that was the only thing she was wearing kiss my way down to her abdomen, the sat up straight so I could unbutton her jeans. She lifted up a little so I could take them down. “Shane’ she moaned taking my hand on her own and guiding them to her center. ‘uhh” I slide 2 finger inside her and her head tilted back biting her lips and smiling lightly. I grinded on her, very slowly, wanting her to enjoy every minute. She started moving to get more friction. “More” she said grabbing my head in her arms kissing me bitting my lower lip. I added a finder and started going faster. She was scratching my back and biting my neck… that’s going to leave mark but I really didn’t care. Hearing her breathe getting faster and faster, her moans and the contact down there is making me crazy… I’m ready to pop and in a few seconds she is too. “Shane I’m gonna…..ahhh …..ahhh…shit…” heavy breathing  is the only thing I hear. She has her eyes closed. And I kiss her slowly. She opens her eyes and her hands go to my face again. Her finger trace my lips. “Sorry”