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    To Live Again, To Love Again Chapter 16

    Story written on October 12, 2005 by goldfish.
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    Five years after the fall of B&T


    Tina:  “Can you tell me what it said?”

    Bette:  “I can do better than that I still have it, you can read it for yourself.”

     

    Bette got up and went to get the letter.

    Bette:  “Before you read it can you answer me a question?”

    Tina:  “Sure”

    Bette:  “Did you want me to say goodbye, were you relieved I was gone?”

     

    Tina:  “I don’t really know why but I would have liked a call or a note to say goodbye, just would have been courteous you know. It hurt my feelings you didn’t say goodbye.  As far as if I was relieved you were gone, hmmm yes maybe at first.  It felt good going out with out the chance of running into you.  But god it was awful not running into you too.

     

    I wanted so bad to go into the Planet and see your beautiful face sitting there.  I wanted to walk past you just to smell you.  I wanted to see that smile that lights a room.  But after awhile I talked to Kit.  She explained why you did what you did.  I understood and I knew that you needed to heal too.  I wasn’t the only one that had suffered in our marriage.  I was as much to blame as you.  I didn’t let you in, I expected you to be the bread winner, the strong one.  I should have not involved our friends.  Going to Alice‘s that night was wrong.

     

     Then I felt so bad for you, you were out there going thru this alone.  New city, new job and new people.  I still had the girls and even Kit.  So relieved, no baby, I felt sad that you had felt you had to leave in order to heal.  I wished we could have healed together.  I know now it was the best for both.  And I thank god you came back to me.”

     

    Bette:  “I knew I had to find within myself what I was afraid of.  I was afraid of showing my weakness.  I never showed it to anyone, not even you.  And you were the one person that I could trust and should have let in.

     

     When we broke, my weakness came to the surface.  My world was destroyed and I had done it to myself.  When I went to therapy I found out that the standards my father had instilled in me were so deep that it was going to take a lot of work to re program myself.  I did it with the help of a great therapist, and new friends and the memories of us.

     

     I think I’m a better person now.  I knew I had to come back to show you the new me.  But I also have plenty of the old me here. (She patted her chest over her heart).  The old part is the reason I’m back, it still has you in it.  I knew I’d never completely be healed if I didn’t come back and face the music.  I needed you to accept me, old and new.”

     

    Tina:  “Oh Bette, I am so grateful for your answers.  I see the changes in you and it makes me happy.  I know that old you is in there, I’ve seen it.  I feel it.  Damn woman and I’ve kissed it.  Thank you for coming back to me.”

     

    Tina reached over and kissed Bette.

    Bette handed her the letter that she wrote the day she left town.  Tina took it and looked at it then handed it back to Bette.

     

    Tina:  “Maybe I’ll read it later right now I just want to savor this moment.”

    Bette:  “It will be here any time you want to read it. Thanks T for being so patient and understanding.  Thank you for listening to me and letting me back in your life.”

    Tina:  “It’s your life too, and now it’s our life again.”

     

    They curled up together on the sofa and held each other, just relaxing and watching the rest of Oprah.   

     

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    2. This was a “feel good” chapter. After the crabby weather of rain for the last few days, this was like a ray of sunshine. I wonder if claire will still try to pursue Bette..i smell trouble.. and I love it.

      Techgal- I like oprah but maybe she is starting to jump on the bandwagon on alot of issues lately, not that there is anything wrong with it. But sometimes you have to take a backseat to some things, not to say that she should not be a part of, but just to chill. i mean first it was the armeze thing, which I am with the retail people, the store was fucking close, cmon already. Then the katrina efforts and now the molestation issues. It’s like she is in everything. Reminds me of Al sharpton and that’s another issue for another day..lol

    3. “I ain’t gonna be no slave!”

      Oprah and Gayle visit the 17th Century House and realize, to her fervent dismay, the role a black woman, if she were to be historically correct, would play.

      Yes, Smiley, Oprah is ubiquitous. She’s everywhere and in everything.

      I do like her hair do’s better than Rev. Al’s though. It’s almost a sacriledge to mention them in the same paragraph.

      Don’t y’all Harlem-ites hate on me, either!

    4. I love how calm and rational they are with each other! They’re talking about some pretty hurtful stuff and they’re both taking it extremely well. It seems that Bette and Tina have changed for the better. Thanks, goldie!

    5. hey tech, i get what you are saying about Oprah and i totally agree. She’s everywhere. Just putting her in this chapter cause i don’t watch daytime tv and that’s all thats all that came to my mind. also…….I LOVE Kathy Griffin’s life on the D list. Its hilarious. thanks for commenting and reading.

    8. Very sweet and definitely healing for B&T. And to use Tina’s words, they can now “heal together” with these conversations they have. I can’t wait to read Bette’s note.

      Hmmm, “Tina stopped and looked at Bette” after Bette tells her that Claire will be visiting. Was that little moment a bit of jealousy? Or is she just glad that Bette is being open and honest?

      Thanks for this “oh so sweet” chapter, goldfish.

    10. This chapter was brilliant, goldfish! It tugs at our hearts with both happiness and sadness. I hope Claire’s visit doesn’t tear our two love birds apart…be kind to us BnT fans with the drama I sense you’re about to unleash on us =)

    12. Excellent chapter GF, and so sweet. I am glad that Claire is comming to visit because I think that she and Sawyer would make a good couple. I wonder how Tina will react to her staying with Bette. It is great to see B&T reconnecting. Please continue, thanks for sharing your story.

    13. Does anybody else on here thing that Oprah is getting a little full of herself? Her guests can’t get a word in edgewise: “Here’s what I’ve learned…”

      She’s got a good heart and she’s good with her money, but she’s a bit over the top with the self-actualization. Plus, she has too many commercials. I hope B&T have TIVO. They can tape O and edit out the ads.

    17. love this fishie… and i also wonder if clair is really ready to let bette just be with tina… just floating and swimming around waiting for your next post…thanks

    20. humm..you know i think after that chapter i really think B&T are very sure about what they want and what they want is each other..i dont think Claire visit will be a problem cuz B&T are strong enough to let jelousy be in the way..and if something bother them they only have to talk..they need to rebuild the trust and it seems it works…another amazing chappy Gold as always your ROCK!!!..thanks :o)

    21. Gold…great chapter. I wonder how Tina’s going to react to Claire staying with Bette? I think Sawyer & Claire would make an interesting couple. I really like that Bette & Tina are talking and are appreciative of what they have. Thanks Gold for this wonderful chapter.

    22. What a joy each time a new chapter of yours appears on the list…
      The Goldfish’s magical touch, again !

      How sweet is our dear two’s slow and deep reconnection…
      Their talk about Bette’s leaving was beautifully wrote here, particularly Tina’s contrasted emotions about Bette’s absence around her, everywhere… Their mutual need of therapy, far of each other, but their mutual need of each other too…
      And what Bette said about the timeless old part in her, the best one, the essential one, that was very beautiful too. As well as Tina’s moved reaction. A really touching part, talented author…
      “Tina: “It’s your life too, and now it’s our life again.” ” God, I love that !

      By the way, I also love the way you depict Tina’s emotions during these daily bandages’ checking, it’s like if Bette’s wounds were a symbolic image of their past relationship’s gentle healing : shared memories and talks, all the little and so essential everyday’s gestures, a kind of life together again, so naturally…

      No doubt Claire’s emergence during this process will have a strong effect – positive, I hope, considering all the personality’s common points between the two women who love Bette Porter. I’m just concerned about Claire’s feelings : how hard it will be, for her, to be the friend next to our two eternal lovers… What a cruel situation for her, even if I’m convinced Tina and her have everything to become friends.

      Well, all these next chapters in prospect, what a wonderful waiting !

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