Shane says, “Yeah,it´s the same for me with Alice and Jenny”.Shane reaches her hand out to pick up a notebook, takes from its pages the letter she wrote, and passes it to her mother. “I need your opinion”.

“you really want me to read your letter?”

“Yes,please.”

“O.K…let´s see…”

`My only one,

I´m seatting here listenning to a song, a very sad one, and although hurts me, I can´t stop to listenning to it.Am I going crazy?.I´m thinking about you. I need to because otherwise I feel like I´m fading away. Sometimes I can feel your breath on my neck, whispering sweets words, dirty words…I can smell you. But then I wake up, and my soul feels so empty again. Does the same thing happend to you?

I try to find the words to excuse me for what I did it to you, for what I did to myself; I get frustated when I realize they don´t exist. Saying I´m sorry isn´t good enough.

I´m in Boston, at my mother´s house….YES, I found her, and after hours of talking about you, she´s dying to meet you.

Yeah, I talk about you all the time!

I´m sure you´re asking why I didn´t come back for you. I´m not ready yet. I want to change, to be better.Why? Because I love you and I know I have to make some changes for have you back by my side . I Never want to fail you again; I want you to have all of me. I know there are some risks , but I´m ready to face them; as you said, that´s wath being alive is all about.

Will you wait for me?Please try .If, when I come back, there is another girl in your life, I want you know that I will not give up.Warn her that she´ll have to fight for you .If this happens, I´ll be the winner, because nobody loves you like I do.

I want to explain you what happened that night, but not by letter or phone. I need you look into my eyes, so you´ll know I´m not lying.

It´s starting to rain.Can you believe it?It seems like it´ll be a hard night to get through. Maybe I´ll be lucky and dream about you again.Remember this: it´s not over.

SHANE.

PS: This is the first time I´ve written a letter….And now I think of it, you were my first `I LOVE YOU´, my first `I NEED YOU´…WOW WOMAN! YOU REALLY CHANGED MY WORLD-AND I LOVE IT-.REMEMBER, I TOLD YOU ONCE THAT I WOULDN´T GO ANYWERE.´

The song keeps playing………..

It don’t matter, when you turn

Gonna survive, live and learn.

I’ve been thinking about you, baby

By the light of dawn, and in my blues

Day and night, I been missing you.

I’ve been thinking about you baby,

Almost makes me crazy,

Come and live with me.

Either way, win or lose,

When you’re born into trouble you live the blues.

I’ve been thinking about you, baby.

See it almost makes me crazy, child

Nothing’s right if you ain’t here

I’d give all that I have just to, keep you near

I wrote you a letter and tried to make it clear

That you just don’t believe that, I’m sincere.

I’ve been thinking about you, baby…

Plans and schemes, hopes and fears

Dreams I’ve denied for all these years

I’ve been thinking about you, babe,

living with me, well…..

I’ve been thinking about you, baby,

makes me wanna…child

Nothing’s right, if you ain’t here

I give all that I have just to keep you near

I wrote you a letter darlin’, trying to make it clear

How much you just don’t believe that I’m sincere.

Thinking about you baby, I want you near me

(“Live with me”,massive attack)

TBC…………………………………………………