“You’re in love with Jodi, right?”  I should be in love with Jodi.  Our relationship looks great on paper, but it doesn’t compare to Tina.  No one compares to her, no one will.  I’m not sure how I managed to suppress my feelings for this incredible woman sitting in front of me.  I take my time answering Tina’s question.  I look into her eyes, and see something I haven’t seen for quite some time: fear.

“I adore her,” I say, “I respect and admire her but…”  I hesitate saying the rest of what I want to say because I know when I do, I will once again become the cheater.  I’ve worked so hard to show Tina and myself that that is not what I am anymore.  I don’t want to be the cheater again, but I might be if I say the rest of my sentence.

“But what?” Tina asks.  She looks like she might fall apart at any second.  That look of vulnerability on her face is so breathtaking.  I want to tell you I love you, that I never stopped loving you.  I want to tell you that I had always hoped that somehow we could be together.

“It doesn’t really compare.”  I state simply.  I give Tina a small smile, and she does the same.  I’m not sure what to do next.  Thoughts of our previous love making, okay it was more heat of the moment fucking, begin to flood my mind.  My heart starts to race in anticipation of what is coming next.  Tina gets up from her seat and holds her hand out to me.  I look up to her and take her hand.  Tine leads me into her house.

“Where are we going” I whisper.  I grip her hand tightly because I’m not sure if I can control myself.

“My bedroom.”  She is direct, isn’t she?  We reach the bed Tina gets on it and faces me.  I’m standing looking at her.  I can’t move.  I’m so captivated by her.  How did I live without her?  I didn’t realize how much I missed her.  Suddenly, she pulls me to her and kisses me.  I finally give in and kiss her like it could be the last time I ever have the pleasure of having her lips on me.  Our tongues begin to battle, and my hands roam all over her body.  Tina begins moaning as my hands rake over her curves.  Tina pulls away from our kiss long enough to slip her dress over her head.  I don’t get much time to stare at her now topless torso because she pulls me back in for a hungry kiss.  I manage to pull away from her hungry kisses.  I take my top off, and Tina looks like she in shock.  All she does is stare at me.  I’m not sure how, but she always seems to know how to make me feel wanted.  My eyes travel up the length of her body and take in her curves.  It’s even better than I remember.  Oh God, nothing will ever compare to her.  She’s stunning.