“Lets not say it T…”

“I couldn’t say it”

Bette planted the gentlest of kisses on Tina’s forehead then dropped her lips to Tina’s ear.

“Turn around”  Bette whispered barely able to get the words out.

“What”

Bette didn’t reply, there was nothing else she could say, the words didn’t exist that could lessen the pain she was in,  she released her hands from Tina’s, placed them on Tina’s shoulders, Tina reluctantly allowed Bette to turn her around, she could hear the faint sound of Bette’s footsteps walking away, she held her breath until she heard the door open and just as quickly close.

The breath she was holding expelled as a soul wrenching sob, and the sobbing continued until through her sobs she heard her parents go to bed.

She threw on her robe and knew exactly where to find the key that Bette had given her years ago but she had never used, as quiet as a mouse she sneaked out of her house.

“Tina what are you doing here”

“I have absolutely no idea but I was hoping we could have no idea together”

Tina removed her robe, she pulled back the duvet and got in beside Bette.

Even in the dim light she could see Bette’s stunned expression.

“T….”

“Bette please don’t speak, anything you say right now will only make me cry and I have cried enough tonight,  I don’t want to feel sad and miserable anymore”  Tina closes her eyes and takes a deep breath before she continues, “The only thing I want to feel right now is….is…..you”  She drew Bette towards her and kissed her with as much passion as her tender years could muster.

With every kiss, every touch, every new discovery at least for the next few hours dulled some the agony they where suffering. What should have signified a new beginning, a new chapter of their life together, unbeknown to them could and would only demonstrate how much they where losing.
 
They had grown together, they hadn’t grown apart and yet they would be separated at least in body by a vast ocean and their first uniting of bodies could very well be their last.

After they lay completely naked and entwined and Tina waited until she thought Bette was in a deep enough sleep not to waken her before she got up, as she was putting on her robe she saw the picture of her and Bette on the bedside cabinet, she carefully ripped it down the middle.