Part 14

The escape…in the mirror

Again a weekend, it is Saturday evening and I stare at the picture on the wall. And like always on such evenings you are so close to me like usually only in my dreams. You sit beside me on the couch, talk to me and look at me with this look that asks: ‚Wanna do it, now, here and immediately?’ And while thinking of it I have to smile. How often did I succumb that look, how often did my eyes cry back to you: ’I want you now, here and immediately!’ And still more worth than these particularly affectionate, tender hours with you, was this indescribable feeling of luck, to be closer to you than anyone else, to become one with you without beginning and without an end. And how often we went out thereafter, have celebrated with our friends up to the early morning hours, have danced and laughed. Usually it ended with one of our friends having to be solaced, while the other one had already left the party with her latest conquest. How often you looked at me in such moments and told me: „I am so lucky that I found you!” Oh how much I miss this sentence. And you knew exactly, what I wanted to say, you knew exactly that nothing in this world had more meaning for me than what I felt this moment.

Suddenly the telephone rang, who could that be? The girls went out for a party this evening. Or had I forgotten something?

„Hi, here’s Alice!” And without me having only the slightest chance to answer, she said that it gets time that I came out of my shell; and go among people again. And that, if I do not want that even my best friends do not recognize me any longer, I have to dress now and come to the Planet, that there’s a big great party and everyone I knew was there and that they would have me fetched from the police, if I wasn’t there within one hour. Well, and you do know Alice, concerning that there’s no joking about; she’d get it done and actually send a police car to me. „Already on my way!” could stop her speech and brought me little easement and before she could talk further I said „See you later!” and ringed off.