"im a healer, i take pain away remember?" She told me to close my eyes. It was weird i felt the pain leaving my body, I felt it be pulled out. I got up and felt fine, except my chest still hurt where my heart was. I had to stop thinking about him though. Jake was worried i could have killed myself, but with Amy around, there was no way. I hope. The adrenaline helped, and i heard his voice. I wanted more shit to do. Ive always been the person to do crazy shit with jake but im accident prone so i was always in the hospital. They knew me by name.

  "what the fuck were you thinking" jake got pissed and started walking my bike to Amy's car."god hes so uptight, with you around kid, we can't go wrong" i put my arm around her shoulder and we started laughing and walking behind jake.

  "Nikki is a fucking idiot, she likes to do stupid shit but always gets hurt, with you around shell feel invincible" jake said throwing the bike into the car.

  "you ride with Amy back and ill ride my bike back, sinse i didn't crash it" I hopped in and we started going. She listened to a song i absolute loved. Riddlin Kids i feel fine. We started singing and jamming out, it was great. A chick, every girl needs a girl friend. She was awesome, same as me so we got along great, plus she was so good to and for jake. My pain thinking of 'him' was lessening as the weeks went on.

   It was about 3 weeks after we rode the bikes. Jake fixed mine and i was getting better and better at it. My dad didn't like it but it was me he wasn't surprised. We  were sitting in the back yard, my dad and brothers were there and we were laughing drinking having fun.

  "nikki, grab the acoustic and play us something." Jake pointed over to his acoustic.

  "fuck that, Nick get the shit from dads truck" Doug pointed over to the front of the house. Doug thought to cheer me up we'de play our fist show, this was gonna be great. NOT.

  "what?" jake questioned.

  "we'll, we brought the drums and amps and bass and, mic" Doug pointed to the flat grass area over by the back deck.

  "shit, fuck yeah man, lets jam out and have a huge party. in celebration to…… US. together again." jake stood up with his beer in his hand and was looking at me from the corner of his eye. I started chugging the rest of mine.

  "Nikki your singin.grab the guitar and get up here" Nick screamed.

  "what guitar?" i asked then i saw it. My brothers walked up to me with this black hard cover guitar case. I opened it up and there was this hot pink guitar, fender stratocaster guitar. The neck was black and the pick ups were black and the pick guard was this black and silver sparkly color. Amazing.

  "play your song sister" Doug leaned in and handed me a pick with NM on it.

  Pete grabbed his bass and jake cam running over and jumped on the drums with Doug on the other guitar with me. I started singing We're all dudes by less then jake. I loved that song. It put all of us in a good mood.