“Okay”

Ashleys P.O.V

When I first picked up Spencer I was really worried about her now she is started to piss me off.  I mean what is with this attitude she is giving me I didn’t do a damn thing.  Now we are sitting down in the sand eating and she has yet to talk.  Maybe something really is wrong I guess I can be a friend and try to figure it out even if I am mad.

“Spence come on, what is it?”  I took her hand just to let her know that I cared.

“Ash, its just that everything is so” she looked up at me with tears once again “wrong”

She had some hair blowing in her eyes so I reached over and pushed them out of her eyes she turned away in an instant “please don’t”

“Why, what is it” I said more firmly trying to get her to talk.

She turned back to me and shook her head, “it hurts ash it hurts and I feel like no matter what I do I can’t change it.  I told Aiden Id marry him, but I really don’t know if I can.”

This shocked me, and I think she could tell by the look in her eyes so she continued.

“Its just that he has been my comfort, he has always been there no matter what he has never left me, and I know he never will.  But he keeps me always worrying if im saying the right thing, or I can’t even wake up in the morning without wondering if he is going to be in a bad mood or a good mood.  I don’t know if he is going to get angry and I what I say or he is going to like what I have to say.” She paused and grabbed my hand.  “Ash I just don’t know if HE is who I love.  I think I might even be in love with someone else.”  I didn’t know what to say.

“uh you, uh what?”  I honestly was confused

she let go of my hand to play with her own “nothing ill just marry him”

“wait, didn’t you just say you don’t love him? Spence don’t do that to yourself you deserve someone who loves you someone who will appreciate you, and honestly I have never liked him, if your not exciting about marry him DON’T!”