"You really miss her don't you?" He caught my eyes with his broken ones as he hurt for me and got a little overwhelmed by how caring he was. No one had ever been so in tune with my emotions. I just nodded and went on trying to get the rest of my story out. I wanted him to know all this about me even if it hurt to talk about it.

"I do…I guess I kind of replaced her with Jacob in my life now." I laughed only joking to lighten the mood for myself.

"I could see him being a good mommy." Edward teased back and I slapped his thigh playfully.

"So anyways…I pretty much turned into the horrible teenager in his eyes that did everything wrong and he took it out on my mom and me both. I could get away and go wherever I wanted, but she was too afraid to leave. He told Jake's family not to come around anymore and to keep him away from me and our family. Made it difficult for me to see him and I always had to break the rules and get myself into even more trouble. One day I just told him to get the fuck over himself. He had known Jake for 13 years and thought highly of him and was glad he was my friend. He loved his family too and to let this one small thing come between all that was ridiculous. That was the first time her ever hit me and my mom wasn't going to put up with it. He had to go or we were leaving. However by that point of her threatening he wanted to feel like the man of the house and like he was running things so he decided to leave to try and hurt us. We were glad though and life started to look up when he walked out the door and never came back. That was until she was ripped away from my world…now maybe you might understand why I always feel like nothing is going to work out for me."

He gripped my shoulders slightly to help calm me.

"Everything was great. I had just finished school and she was so proud of me. We talked about moving and the different colleges Jake and I would attend and it would just be the three of us. Our little family that we had for 5 years. Everything was perfect and I couldn't be happier. It was about a month after I left school and I was out with Jake looking for a summer job while waiting for a college to reply when I got the call. She had been in a car wreck and killed instantly…"