"Thanks for dinner babe. It was perrrfect." She says licking her lips. The way to Spencer’s pants is through her stomach.

"You’re welcome." she sits up, pushes me onto my back and yanks off my pajama pants.

"Spencie…" she lays on me and starts kissing my neck. She has my hands pinned above my head.

"Tell me about your night terrors." she says suddenly serious. What the hell?

"Spencer, was this all so you could pin me?"

"Yup. So spill it."

"Let me up!" I say thrusting into her. She moans and bites her lip but doesn’t let me go.

"I can’t. You need to talk about it. If that means I have to hold you down and deprive you of sex then so be it." She says moving so all her weight is on my arms. This is not what’s supposed to happen when your girlfriend is half naked sitting on you. I look up into her eyes. She stares right into me and I close my eyes.

"Don’t make me do this." I say my voice cracking. I can feel the tears forming behind my eyelids. One escapes and slides down my cheek.

"If it’s that bad, you definately have to tell me." She kisses my forehead and I open my eyes. My tears spill out. She let’s go of my arms and I cover my face with my hands. My head starts to hurt. Spence pulls my hands from my face and holds them down near my waist so I can’t pull them back.

"Wwhen I  was llittle… I wwould hhavve nightmaresss whhherre I was drowning or I’d get pushedd off hhigh buildings. When I hhit the gground I’dd hhearr the ccrunch and wake up with my legs hurting really bad. Around when I was 11 they changed. I’d be in a dark black room. I couldn’t move or breathe or talk. But the scary part was that I actually couldn’t move or breathe or talk. I couldn’t open my mouth to cry out. And I would stop breathing. It took all of my will power just to get one eye open or move a finger. That’s the only thing that would get me out. I’d wake up and cry every time. I had falling ones and going downstairs ones after we moved untli I met you. Then when my mom sent me away they started back up again. When I got back I dreamt about you again but you were far away crying. I’d try to get to you but I mostly never did." She moved when I started talking and I curled up and put my arms over my head. Spence rolls me over and tries to pull me out of my ball. I’m not crying any more but I feel like an open wound.

"I don’t know what that means but you’re ok. I’m here. I’m gonna keep you safe. I won’t hurt you. I love you." she turns off the lights and uncurls me again. I put my head on her chest and she holds me. I wrap my arms tight around her. I fall asleep listening to her heart beat and steady breathing.

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