I walk into the house with the pizza I stopped and got for supper “Spence baby, are you here?” I yelled out into the house as I sat the pizza down and started off in search of her, I stopped suddenly as I saw her sitting on the couch curled up with a glass of wine, I could tell she had been crying. I tentatively walked in the room

“Hey” I said as I sat down slowly on the other end of the couch, she just looked at me and gave me a small nod

I slid a little closer to her on the couch “Spence look, I know things got out of hand last night and I was completely out of line” I began explaining to her desperately “ I know you never deserve to be treated like that, and especially not from me” she just continues looking at me, urging me to continue my explanation “Baby” I gently put my hand on her thigh “You know you mean everything to me, and I want to have the best life with you, and I want to give you anything you want… even a baby because you know that I want one to”

“Then why would you act like that Ashley? Do you realize how bad that hurt me?” She gives me a sad look; I put my head down ashamed at the fact that I knew I hurt her

“I know Spence, I know baby, it’s just that I really don’t think… well you see, I just don’t think we should have a baby right now, you know, why not try in a year?… we will be fully settled in and everything, and it would just make more sense” I tried to explain

She took my hands in hers and gave me a pleading look “Ashley, please I know we are ready now, and I just really want a baby so badly, and I know you do t” I cut her off before she could continue

“I’m deploying in a week Spencer!” There I finally got it out

She just looked at me, her mouth opened and closed several times, tears were welling up in her eyes as she looked at me. She quickly stood up, she chucked her wine glass against the wall. It shattered into tiny pieces and the wine splattered all over.