I’m on my way home now. Work today was horrible, and all I could think of was the fight Ashley and I had. When I left this morning Ashley was already gone, she always leaves  early in the morning. I can’t help but wonder what it will be like tonight at home. Will we not be on speaking terms, will we get into another fight, and will we talk like a “civil” married couple… There are just so many thoughts running through my head. Ashley always gets home about forty-five minutes after I do. I just want to be able to work through this and be able to see eye to eye.

Ashley’s POV

            I can’t believe I treated Spencer like that last night, it’s completely out of character for me. I never want to hurt her, but I’m just really worried about everything right now. My thoughts are cut off as someone walks in my office I look up to see Aiden standing in the doorway. He is my right hand man and best friend on the base, and he is also my brother in-law.

“So have you told Spencer yet?” he asks

I look up at him with a defeated look “No, I just can’t bring myself to tell her, I know we leave in a week, but I just don’t want to break her heart… you know this is exactly what she has always been worried about.” He nods his understanding

“I know exactly what you mean, I still haven’t told Kyla yet” Kyla is my sister, her and Aiden just got married a month ago, I introduced them 2 years ago and the rest is history

“Last night I really let it get to me though, and I ended up sleeping on the couch because of it” I begin. “Spencer started talking about trying to have a baby, and I totally freaked. I mean I knew that it would come up sooner or later, but it just seems to be bad timing, I can’t be having her pregnant back here while I’m overseas, plus worst case, what if something would happen to me while we are over there, then where would she be? Raising a child as a war widow, it just doesn’t seem fair to her” I sat and contemplated everything for a few seconds.  “I’m gonna tell her tonight… I have too it’s only fair, and we leave in a week” Tonight I’m going to tell Spencer that I will be deploying for Iraq in a week, and that I will be over there for six months.