So it’s been a whole week since Michelle and I have started hanging out and I have to say that I’m really enjoy myself. It’s nice to have a friend to share lame jokes with and to hang out with. Michelle still a little shy with me but I like that about her. She’s funny, smart and less complicated. I mean she’s just easy to be with you know. What you see is basically what you get. There’s no deep dark stuff inside of her that needs to come out. She’s just your normal teenage girl with her entire life ahead of her. Not much baggage.

Let’s see what time is it? Damn it’s already 5:30 pm and Michelle is coming over at 6:30 pm. Well, it’s not bad. I got the snacks and the movies ready. So there’s really nothing I need to do. She’s spending the weekend with me. That should be fun. We’ll do all the girly stuff you know. Go to the beach, the mall, pig out on junk food, basically have a good time. I need that right now. I need to continue to be distracted. Michelle has helped a little to stop me from thinking about Spencer 24/7. Don’t get me wrong Spencer is still the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last when I go to sleep. But at least I get a break for a few hours during the day. Gotta keep my sanity somehow.

Okay let me check my email and myspace. I know I don’t have many friends but I did leave a couple at the prison I was in a few months ago and I do like hearing from them once in a while. Let’s see, hotmail says I have 10 messages. Probably all junk mail. Yep, all junk email except one. It’s from Kristen. She’s still back in Switzerland is just writing to say hi and see how I’m doing. Eh, I’ll respond to her later. Moving on to myspace. I probably don’t have anything but sometimes I get a little comment or something you know. Hmm….let’s see. Oohh…I have a message . Wow, I wonder from who. It’s from Always Alone. Who the heck is that?

Opening it, I hope it’s not from some pervert or something. Who in the world is Always Alone? Let me read and find out. Wow. They said I was warm and caring. They said they could see such beauty in my eyes. Wow. I wonder if they mean it. I wonder who they are. They said that maybe that those people that I’ve loved maybe didn’t mean to hurt me. They seem to be saying that from personal experience. Hmm…wonder why they are writing to me. This feels so weird but good at the same time. I don’t know why? Just reading this message is making my heart throb a little. Wow.