Beautiful Disaster

Chapter Three: Role Reversal Baby

There I was minding my own damn business, walking down the hall with a few friends, when I saw a familiar group of people; Spencer and her friends. I wanted to look away, I wanted to look away so damn badly but I couldn’t. She was too beautiful, too perfect standing there. But like hell I would let her know it this time around. She would be the one chasing me, I had done my running.

 When she looked at me and smiled that bloody million dollar smile my heart leapt and all my insides did a happy dance, but I just smiled back easily and said goodbye to my friends and kept on walking.

 "Ashley!" She called to me. I swore under my breath but turned around quickly to see her jogging after me as I made my way down the stairs.

"What class are you off to?" She asked me in that sweet voice of hers. ‘What the hell do you care?’ I thought to myself.

"I’ve got uh lunch this period, how about you?" She was standing too close! I wanted to hug her, I wanted to tell her everything, I wanted her to SEE me and really, really see me. But above all of that, I wanted her to hurt…I wanted her to feel what I felt, so I kept playing my game.

"Careers, pretty useless though if you ask me. You have first period lunch? I’ve got fourth, that sucks Ash. Well I’m in a portable so I’ll see you around." She opened the door and I just smiled and kept on walking. When the door shut behind her and I was sure that she was out of sight I exhaled the breath I had been holding and I allowed the nervous shivers to run through my arms and legs. It wasn’t because I had the hots for her or anything, she was beautiful yah, but that wasn’t it.

 When somebody hurts you like that, when somebody refuses your friendship or your love you’re just so filled with hurt that it runs through you rapidly. Whenever you see them you remember what they did and it takes time to get over the adrenaline that pumps through you when your heart remembers being broken.