"Hmm, that’s cool. I’ve made out with girls before, I kind of want to make out with Sarah just because we’re close and she’s bi and well it’d be hot." She was smiling, this time a sly smile. I laughed, God she could be cute sometimes. I really hoped she wouldn’t be making out with Sarah anytime soon, I knew they were really close but I hated that girl.

"So Spence…how bad do you wanna kiss me?" I asked playfully, I nudged her to let her know I was joking around. We cuddled a lot, and I had kissed her on the forehead once and she admitted to loving it, but we’d never even discussed going further or being into eachother…maybe she just wanted a good time. I knew she’d given guys hand jobs before and according to her she’d been fingered by the same guys so I figured if we ever did anything or make out it would be for kicks…but I loved her, I cared for her…how could I treat her like that, how could she treat me like that if she loved me as much as she said she did? It was all confusing but I shook it off quickly, I just wanted to be with her right now and she didn’t want to kiss me anyways…then she looked at me.

It was one of those Spencer looks, those looks that say, ‘I’m gonna surprise you’. She smirked and said, "Pretty damn bad."

I should have come back with something smart, but for some reason my throat was caught, my heart was beating faster and I couldn’t find my feet. I stood there stupidly as she continued walking as if she hadn’t just said what she said. Girls…they’re so damn hot.

We got back to my place, even after that little revelation we hadn’t been in an awkward silence, we just went right back to joking around and teasing eachother about who we’d been with. I had a lot of experience on her thats for sure, she hadn’t been with many people, two to be exact. I couldn’t even list the number of girls and guys I’d had, but I could tell you why I’d had all of them…to forget her.