We have been here in Ohio for about a week, and we are going to head back home in a couple of days. Dad and Becca made Grams go to the doctors, practically carried her out because she didn’t want to go, why? Because she said that she didn’t need a stinking doctor to tell her when her time was going to be up, that it was up to god to decided and she was ready to go because her children where happily married and with children of their own. At the time Grams said that both Becca and my dad knew she wasn’t telling us something. So they most definitely had to drag my Grams to the doctors and they were right grams had a couple of months left. I was a bit shocked because she didn’t really show any symptoms, well I mean she looked perfectly fine and all. This happened about two days ago. My dad has been trying to keep it together for the sake of Grams because if she were to see him down or something. I’m pretty sure she will tell him to suck it up, ha ha ha yea I know in time of sadness my grams would be the one to say something like that. Becca on the other hand is a bit more reserved; she will not let her emotions get the best of her unless there was a breaking point i.e. the divorce.  I still haven’t had the guts to go talk to grams about it, I don’t know it just seems a bit unfair that she was given a certain amount of time to live and do everything you have to do that you ever wanted, and if you don’t get to do any of it well to bad your dead you had your chance.  I guess it still hasn’t sunk it completely that she will be gone in a couple of months, I always figured that she will always be there to tell us stories about her time, how she meet gramps, how her family didn’t want her to marry gramps but still did it anyways.

Grams: “Spencer, may I speak with you?” she brought me out of my daze, I just nodded and made my way to sit next to her on the couch “you know that when I meet you grandfather I was about your age, he had those piercing blue eyes that you have” I look up at her and smile “and every time that I look at your beautiful eyes it reminds me of your grandfather and how much I miss him”