“Does she know if she is going to show ?”

“If she knows – she’s not saying. The thing is – I took it out on them that we had gone our separate ways . I had some terrible rows with my father and I don’t think things have been the same between me and them since.”

“You blamed them instead of blaming yourself “

Bette shrugged “ That’s the thing – I was a coward. I was the one who went along with what dad and Emma wanted. I talked Tina into going along with it”

“So a lot of it is guilt on your part ?”

Bette picked her fork up again and shovelled some scrambled eggs into her mouth.

“I should have told our parents to keep the hell out of our business and then I cheated on her after less than a week”

“But you haven’t loved anyone else “

Bette nodded “There is always that “

“In reality would you and Tina really have stayed together for four years ?”

“No – no we wouldn’t have. Not the way I went crazy “ she smiled “ I just love women. God – I am such a tart “

“You didn’t do anything wrong it seems to me. You were 18 years old and you had only had one girlfriend – you are bound to listen to your folks because they have always known best for you. You didn’t promise her that you would be faithful did you ?”

Bette shook her head “No “

“So cut yourself some slack – but you are meeting her in three hours. What do you want to happen ?”

“I have thought about her so often – every day. When I have been in bed, when I have running or studying. And I have thought about today – thought about what it would be like to see her. To stand there at the train station and see her. I don’t know what is going to happen. I have played the scene time and time again in my head. Sometimes when I have been home on leave from college I have just gone to the station and just stood there. Stood there and played  the current scene in my head “

Meghan picked up some of her toast and took a bite – Bette really was very sweet but as she also knew – also dangerous because she combined beauty with a kind heart. There wasn’t a lesbian in New York who would be able to resist this 23 year old stunner.

“Do you want her back ?”

“I don’t know  – as you tell me every time we talk – I am 23. I have so much ahead of me. I have a wonderful career that I am so excited about. I have a lovely apartment – and I am back in my favourite city. I don’t know if I am ready to settle down” Bette looked at Meghan “ But this is Tina. I think with Tina all the other rules that apply to me in my life just don’t apply. I am scared senseless Meghan – I want to see her because I really want to know what is going on in her life and see how she has changed. But its scary “

Bette didn’t say that there was a massive part of her that hoped the decision was out of her hand – that maybe Tina was with another woman and she would tell Bette how happy she was. That would make it easier – but would it ? How would she feel to know that Tina loved another woman when she had not fallen in love with any woman – regardless of how many she had bedded.

“I don’t think there any many things you are scared of Bette “ Meghan sighed – and to think that when she had first laid eyes on the brunette she had been hoping she could lure her into bed – and here she was giving her advice “ All I will say to you is that when you see her again – you will know whether she is always going to just remain your high school sweetheart or if the two of you have another set of chapters to write “