On the limit

Chapter 5

I’m sitting in the bedroom again, listing to music. That’s the only thing that brings me down.

She really didn’t think about me when she made the decision.

Do I really mean so little to her? What am I to her? What the fuck do the last 3 years mean to her?

The tears are coming but I’m pushing them down with all my strange, dont cry like you’re a little baby.

I twitch a little when she hugs me from behind. She sits down behind me and slowly takes of my headphones. And bevore I can say a word she whispers in my ear.

"Please, just give me a chance to explain!".

So I stay silent, waiting for her to talk.

"It’s thru that I tooked the job, but obvious there’s something Bette didn’t told you!".

Her hug is getting a bit tighter.

"When I had the conversation with that Peabody lady I said I do the job with one condition".

She kisses me on the shoulder.

"What was your condition?", my voice was very low, but I think Shane heared it.

"Only if I can take my girlfriend to every race".

What?

"I just wanted to make sure that you got time…I mean you still have a job and I didn’t know if you could take off such a long time…".

I tear rolled from my eye.

"How can you think I would like to be without you?".

I can’t say anything at this moment.

"I love every second that we’re togehter!".

We just stay a few moments like this.

Then I free myself from her hug.

I put my hands on her face…

"I’m so sorry Shane. I’ve been such an Idiot and you haven’t done anything wrong!".

I give her a kiss, "I would love to be with you on your new job. Take care of you after the races, cheer you on when your racing".

She has a big smile when I sit down on her lap and face her again.

"But just the thought about you leaving me here alone for some months made me crazy".

"I have notice that…".

Me and her both lough after that Sentence.

"I know, I know!… But how can I possible apologize for my bad behavior?", I say sexy and slowly my hands find the way under Shane’s green tank top.