chapter 21

  In Cherie Jaffe’s beach house:

   I enter the party with Alice…I see people drinking in the pool. So much fucking booze. I cannot believe it. Basically the whole of LA high school kids seems to be here. I always wanted to come to a party like this. But now that I am in one, I don’t like it at all. Its not even 9 and people are already drunk and making out like horny horses. Its disgusting. Al seems to really like it. I stay close to her I don’t wanna get lost in here. Her beach house is a fucking palace. I really don’t understand exactly how rich she is. 

      I look around probably trying to find Shane. But I cannot. So I take a bud light can and open it and take a drink sitting in the sofa. Juan told me never to drink from an open can, unless you trust the person. Alice meets this girl Lara and now they’re all over each other. I wish Dana was here to stop Al. 

     So I am all alone here. I decide to take a walk around the house to look around, and secretly I wanna find out Shane. I know she does wanna talk to me but I don’t want her to go through that road again. It would be really sucky even for a tough girl like her. 

 I enter a hallway and there are doors for bedrooms I think on either side. Some are closed and muffled moans are coming from them. And some are open with no one inside. I come to the last door, its not closed completely, a little ajar. So I take the liberty to walk in. 

       And I don’t want to believe what I am seeing. This is BAD!!!!!  I don’t think they even know I am at the door. I see cherie sitting on the bed half naked, her hair all messed up, all sweaty, her makeup coming down, and I don’t even need to guess whose head is drowned in between Cherie’s legs…..

 Its none other than Shane McCutcheon!!! 

 I don’t really know what to feel. Shane won’t talk to me because she’s with Cherie!?!?!?! this is fucking unbelievable. This is disgusting!  I feel like slapping Shane across the face. And for the second time this week, my heart Shattered into pieces. I really thought there was something between me and Shane and clearly I was a fool to even think about the possibility. But I still Cannot believe it. Shane was always so sweet to me and she even came to have dinner with my family. She would do all those junk work for my mom. How could Shane do this to me?