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    Me, I’m not……

    Story written on April 19, 2007 by New Dawn Fades.
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    Words: 3491
    Story Shortlink: https://assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=65426
    Author Notes:

    Three very diffrent lives merge…….

    Me, I’m not….

      

      

      

      

    PROLOGUE

     

    I have often wondered about the course of things.

     

     On this crazy trip that spanned a measure of time and space, I have wondered about paths taken and not. I have wondered at what point was this going to end with the three of us. To wonder out loud would be mean and unbeneficial, after all they are sleeping soundly in the back seat. This insane road of sex and violence. A road I don’t believe Carmen, Shane nor myself really planned on.

     

    One bad decision lead to another. And another and another. I can’t even begin to fathom how exactly I’ve found myself in this…..actually that is a lie. I know exactly when this mayhem begun…..I am completely aware of it. It only now hit me. The guilt of it. Lies compounded by lies. We really mustn’t begin this way. It wouldn’t be prudent. In order to capture the scene properly…..well we would need to travel back in time….back to a better place when everything was simpler. When my actions where meant to bring about love and happiness.

     

    Yes…….we must go back to oh let’s say 9 months ago……….I suppose every story needs a beginning.

     

    “9 months ago…………………wait……10 months ago………”

     

    “Helena you want me to drive, you are talking to yourself again….”

     

    “No, Shane I am alright. I was just thinking out loud.”

     

    “Cool…..”

     

     

    Shane I can understand. She has a checkered past. Carmen….. I don’t understand why she was doing this with us……..I should have known something was off. The song playing on the radio was rather ominous. The angry words drilling into my head with painful clarity.

     

     

    “Countdown till the end…..gotta make it go faster, faster. Right around the bend is a coming disaster……….”

     

     

     

     

     

    CH 1

     

     

     

    That stupid video.

     

    How unimaginative….how trite…..she leaves the video and her meager earnings and is gone as quickly as she came. I heard it all before. The excuses, the exposed feelings. Gracious they are all. How many has it been now? God only knows.  It’s my fault really it is. I come on too strong. I want to feel them too much and in the end I was always alone. Maybe drunk….maybe not. On this occasion I was drunk. On this occasion I was feeling more raw than usual. I was feeling more stripped, more silenced.

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    2. God I love your stories I’ve been reading them since “Now I’m Nothing”. I love the way you use so many of the NIN lyrics! I got their CD on tuesday it kicks so much ass! Well all of their albums do! Great strory, can’t wait for the next update!

    3. This idea would never be done correctly on the LW thats why I’m glad you’re tackling it. Helena’s attraction to Carmen is hot. Can’t wait to see where you take ’em.

    5. I love this idea! I have always liked Helena and I like the idea of her and Carmen being freinds. But that’s all! Looking forward to reading more, as always your writing is awesome for lack of a better word!

    6. This is awesome…i’ve always liked Helena, it’s really interesting to read this story through her point of view. And I also loved these lines, ‘So young. So blind to how much they love each other. They are so afraid of being apart that they tear themselves apart.’ That describes Sharmen perfectly. Can’t wait for your next update…C.

    8. dude, totally hooked. more please!!! helena and carmen… uhm, well HOT! and the tension and crazyness between shane and carmen… well, interestingly HOT!.. haha.. PPS please!!

    9. woohoo a new story! You know that I love you right? I think i have told like 300 people about your fics. And Carmen and Helena’s love story is totally fine by me!!! I think that they look really cute together. Thank you for a new fic… You are one of the best fan fic writers there is!

    10. hmm…. PERFECT!!!! lol please continue like now!! cause you know like always… im hooked!!! i cant wat for more!!! you know what.. i like sharmen and carmen together but…. you know people need change lol jajaja man Helena and Carmen?!?!!? soooo cool and dferent i love it!!!! i whant something to happened like noe!! lol… i just like Carmen… And ma ni like the way Helena thinks about her like… the way you wrote it it was amazing… i always end up reding it like 4 times cause i like it too much.. you hav a gift my friend and we are all lucky to read that gift jaja take care!! like alwaysadicttosharmen!!!

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