Love and Affection Chapter 7

Bette wasn’t sure if she was able to talk to anyone about her demons or how to really truly trust someone.  How come now, did she feel compelled to trust Tina or just this one person now?  It made sense, Tina had caring eyes and understanding of getting through tough stuff.  Bette as well has had her struggles as being adopted as baby and raised by her Caucasian parents.  She had had the good life and was not under privilege of anything really.  Great education supportive and loving family and supported her as she had done well with her swimming career in college and junior Olympics.  What was a struggle for her was that she could not see herself as someone that was half black, it was so hard to look at that corner and cross with pride.  It made her feel lost and lonely.  It was a demon that ate away at her and made her not recognize how she could embrace new things and move on.  Really love someone and be able to grow with them.

“Bette, you can tell me anything and we can get through it together, ok?”  Tina held Bette as she had cried herself to a point, well, she felt silly really.  She began to tell her story of her life as she had been born in Los Angeles and was abandoned by her birth mother at the hospital.  Her adopted parents were anxious to adopt a child and Bette had been born at the right time.  As Bette told her story, Tina felt so much pride and excitement about her new companion’s life story, it said so much about Bette.  Bette’s confidence and beauty exude from her inner strength and her telling her story of her life made her more beautiful.

“It’s been so hard growing up sometimes.  Always feeling different and then at the same time I felt that I had fit in at the same time.  I know it’s weird and it is to a point and yet, it is something that I have learn to accept more and more now.  I can talk about it and it is such a relief to just breathe about it.  I am glad I am sharing this with you.  From all the therapists and there were a lot, you are the one that has made me feel so liberated from a burden and pain of my suffering of what it feels like I have been living all this time.”  Bette knew it was a lot for one person to take especially with someone she had just met. She herself couldn’t believe she was just babbling out her life like this and it just seemed right.  How strange it may have been and she had thought, that if it is meant to be go for it.

“Bette, it is amazing on how far you had overcome.  I am sure it hasn’t always been easy and I don’t know what your demons are.  I can say that I think it makes you an amazing and captivating person.”  As Tina had held Bette, Bette had started to pull her closer to her.  It was a soft kiss and kiss that grew with hunger from Tina.  Tina moaned in Bette’s mouth as Bette had pressed her tongue to permit inside Tina’s mouth.  They began to kiss like this for minutes and became to a point where Bette had to pull away.  Tina began to caress Bette’s back and pulled her in for another embrace. 

“If we keep doing that, I won’t be able to be the conscious person I should be with you Tina.”  Bette had a sexy grin on her face and was touching Tina’s collar bone and gave Tina goose bumps.  A low moan came out of Tina as she looked up at Bette with desire.

“I broke up with Eric not only because of the situation of it not working and just also my attraction for women.  I wasn’t able and haven’t been able to date or be with a woman.”  Tina looked into Bette’s eyes.  “I am so glad that I have this moment to be with you Bette, you make me so comfortable and desired.  It is so different from being with a man and I know it just beginning and it is just so wonderful!”  Tina smiled with laughter in her eyes and kissed Bette tenderly on her nose.  “ I want you.  I want us to make it right and be with each other, if you can handle that?”  Bette looked back at her and was in awe of Tina being so independent and caring.  She had usually dated those who were submissive and would do as they said and not really have too much to say in the ordeal.  This was more than just some “thing” it was a relationship.  Could Bette handle it?