Just as the lovers were retreating to their room hand-in-hand the phone rang.

Bette: Babe its late let the voicemail get it.
Tina: Lets see who it is. Its awful late”it could be an emergency.

They both look at the caller id it reads, SIMONE LENNOX.


TBC.


Bette: What could she want?
Tina: Ill talk to her and let her know this was all a horrible mistake and misunderstanding.
Bette: (clasps Tinas hand as she reaches for the phone.) T, dont you think shes disrupted us enough for one night? Lets go to bed. Well deal with her in the morning.
Tina brings Bettes hand to her lips and gently kisses it. Youre right babe. Youre so right, Im sorry for all of th. Bette puts her finger on Tinas lips to quiet her. Were okay dont keep apologizing it happened and well deal with”everything is fine.

With that hand-in-hand they walk towards their room. As the couple undressed for bed an uneasy silence enveloped them. Evidently Simones phone call had in fact brought back the doubts and insecurities the couple thought they had put to rest. This was supposed to be a night to celebrate their new addition or a night to comfort one another and try again if the insemination hadnt worked. Instead tonight the lovers were wrestling issues they never knew they even had. Tina seemed to notice the eerie silence first. She just didnt know what to do to remedy the problem. Bette had already forgiven her for her indiscretion with Simone but forgiveness alone doesnt mend broken trusts or heal insecurities its only a first step. Tina knew this all too well.

She went along doing he nightly ritual of brushing her teeth and washing her face trying to think of something to deafen the blaring silence. She left the bedroom door ajar and watched Bette as she hung up her suit she noticed Bettes tired weary movements as her stunning body moved around the room in complete silence.

As Tina left the bathroom Bette went in she didnt look at Tina as she passed her she was lost in her thoughts. Ive forgiven her but where do we go from here. Im still wondering if shes curious to be with someone else. ***** she has to be. Part of me wants to make love to her all night– please her so that she doesnt feel deprived or like shes missing anything but I dont want our love making to be about squashing my fear of inadequacy. When Im with Tina I want it to be about connecting with her because I love her. How did we get here? Im afraid to touch my own wife fearing my own motives. Why the ***** did this happen? Bette struggled with this internal conversation as she was deep in thought she hadnt realized neither had said anything to the other. As Bette left the bathroom and put on her pajamas her emotionally drained body finally hit the bed. Tinas arm accidentally grazed Bettes shoulder. The tension”sexual and otherwise was so strong it was apparent.

Tina: Oh Im sorry. I didnt mean towait Bette Im not about to apologize for touching my wife. Whats going on? I thought wed worked through all of this?

Bette: Tina I did too but things just dont go away just because you want them to. Its been a long day and I really dont think I can think more about this much less talk about it. Talking isnt going to fix this.

Tina: What will then Bette? We cant just go on like this”afraid of touching AND talking?

Bette: T this thing you did has awakened fears that Id almost forgotten I had at a time when things were going EXTREMELY well. Im not used to feeling this insecure it doesnt bring out the best side of me T. Just be patient and let me get through this okay?

Tina: This is affecting both of us Bette”just dont shut down on me please. Im begging you.

Bette: Tina you never have to beg me to do anything”I just, right now I need some sleep.

Tina: (getting scared) Okay Bette sleep but baby I love you and nothing will ever change that.

Bette: Good night and T I love you too.

Tina laid there eyes wide unable to close. She didnt think one kiss would have caused this kind of destruction she saw Bettes point of view and fear. She had from time to time wondered what it would be like to be with another woman but she never had that interest in Simone it truly was one regrettable act that she never knew would have this kind of repercussion. It wasnt worth it. She said inaudibly.

Bette feigned fatigue but she too was unable to sleep as visions of Simone and Tina kissing kept invading her mind”driving her completely mad with worry, fear, and a sense of doom shes never felt. The more she kept trying to think of other things the more vivid this image became so she broke her own plea for silence.

Bette: T you awake?
Tina: yes Bette whats wrong?
Bette: I need to know EXACTLY what you were feeling before the kiss. Were you feeling sad or lonely—what?
Tina: I dont know. I think I was feeling a little sad just because tonight was the first time Id been back to the CAC”other than your office, to walk around since THAT night and just being there I remember thinking the scene of the crime as I passed the gallery that I saw your and Candaces little exchange. But more than that Bette it was the idea that someone else in that low moment thought I was beautiful and sweetie at the time I thought I needed that, to know I was beautiful.

Bette: Tina dont you get that from me?
Tina: Absolutely I do, but sometimes I think its just a habit
Bette: Oh so you dont think that I think youre really beautiful”its just something I say out of habit. T do you have any idea how just looking at you makes me want you. You know, Im sorry lets not talk anymore. I shouldnt have mentioned it.
Tina: Come on Bette thats not fair.
Bette: Im sorry T really”its beyond late. Youre forgiven. Im not angry. I just want to understand this better so it doesnt happen again but I just want to get through this night—sleep is what we both need. Goodnight babe.

Tina sat in silence and closed her eyes her last conscious thought Ive got to let Bette know she is the ONLY one I want. Sleep finally found her as she dozed off.

Bette was restless watching her T sleep as the moonlight danced upon her creamy skin. God I love her. I want her and I need her. Bette felt a burst of excitement and it immediately reminded her of how when she and Tina first started dating and Tina wasnt quite ready to make love Bette would hold her all night unable to sleep excited because she was holding Tina in her arms wanting so much to explore her body but respectfully waiting until Tina gave herself. Bette felt that same excitement filled with an urgency she couldnt take it anymore and as if Tina read her mind her eyes fluttered open in that instant she noticed a look of desire and longing in Bettes gaze.
Tina: Babe, Bette?
Bette: Tina I want you so bad babe.
Tina: Its okay I want you too.

They began to devour each others mouths with desperate kisses trying to connect and abandon all insecurities. Bette rolled on to Tina and beginning licking her neck and kissing her right behind her ear. She raised Tinas tank top and began slowly rubbing her hardened nipples and soon her mouth found them. Tina pushed Bettes head harder onto her nipples and arched her back to welcome Bettes yearning mouth. Bette let out a moan of pleasure and frustration she couldnt get enough of Tina. She slid her hand into Tinas waistband of your pajamas she was rewarded with Tinas wet, ready, aching core.
Bette: Tina I want you so bad God Damn It I cant get close enough.
Tina grabbed Bettes fumbling hand and pushed it deep into herself. They both grunted out loud. Oh God T you feel amazing. Tina grabbed Bettes head with one hand and forcefully kissed her igniting more of Bettes unbridled passion. Tina was so close to her release she held onto the sheets with a tight grip with her other hand as she rode Bette until she couldnt feel anything but her racing heart and Bette working her magic inside of her. Bette needed to taste Tina and as she kept her pace thrusting now three fingers into Tina. Bette lowered her body watching Tinas face in a state of sheer bliss and ecstasy. Bette reached Tinas wet core and breathed in her sweet scent as she took her hardened ***** into her mouth with that contact Tina found her voice Bette I love you with that Tina came so hard ohh B B Betttttte ohh!!!!! She pulled Bette up to her and ran her fingers lovingly through Bettes scalp. Bette was so worked up Tina rested only a moment in order to try to sate Bette the way shed been more than satisfied. It would prove to be a long night as the lovers solidified their bond with their lovemaking. They finally fell to sleep with smiles plastered across their faces.

Seven oclock the next morning the lovers were pulled from their haven of bliss by a loud banging at their front door.

Bette: (tired and angrily) Who the ***** could that be?

TBC