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Laid Up: Another Season 3–Chapter 25B
“What?”
“I think we’re meant to be together. You’ve got to feel that.”
“I’m gay and my girlfriend is gay. We’re gay together and we’re going to have a really gay wedding in a few months.”
He laughed, but it sounded sinister, like he was cooking up a plan that involved duct tape, rope, and a box cutter. “I’ve got my work cut out for me, then.”
* * * * *
The Venerable Rajani Lawudo was in her office, but not seated at her desk. Instead, she sat on a pillow in the middle of the room. Seated opposite her was Bette whose head was lowered in reverence to her teacher.
“So this is your opportunity to discuss anything that may be going on with you, anything that’s come up in your meditations. It’s okay to speak if you need to.” Ven. Rajani stared at Bette, waiting for a response, but none was forthcoming. She continued, “Are you experiencing any difficulties; any discomfort—physical, spiritual; any difficulties with the silence.” Bette shook her head.
Ven. Rajani had been watching Bette throughout the last two days, had watched her in the field last night. Bette was having difficulties. During meditation she was restless and her face showed a woman who was frenzied in her stillness. “Okay, then.”
Bette was relieved, she could leave. She could get her phone and go. Bette bowed and started to stand, but Ven. Rajani stopped her again by extending her arm, palm down asking her to stay seated.
“Just a moment more.”
Bette sat back down on the pillow.
“I think you should use this private discussion time wisely. Certainly questions and concerns have arisen during your meditation. I can address them with you now.”
Bette shook her head. If she spoke, she’d tell her how she really felt. If she did that, she would give up. Giving up was something she didn’t want to do, it wasn’t her nature. As she had many, many times over the years, Bette thought about her father’s advice. She recalled sitting with him in the Meadowlands’ picnic area and him saying, ‘the temptation is to take the easy way out, to give up on the unending necessity of forcing ourselves to look at the situation, of forcing ourselves to grow, of forcing ourselves to change. Sometimes moral fatigue sets in. You’ll grow weary.’ She was weary. There were times in her life when she had chosen to move on, but that was because she wasn’t invested in the activity or the relationship. She moved on when she left Alice, for example. Bette would never give up on Tina or Angelica. Those months of being separated from Tina had been the worst. There had been times she hadn’t known how she’d cope, but she hadn’t given up. Now, she worried that staying here, being away from them was in a manner of speaking deserting them. Would she be giving up by staying here or giving up by leaving the retreat? She thought she knew the answer.
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Oh. My. God. That was freaking awesome, but WHO TOOK BABY A?!? Already, it seems like a hours ago that I was laughing at Al and Dane and the armpit licking, and Bette whooping as she left the retreat, and wondering what Carmen was gonna do after she ran out of beers to pour out, and hoping Henry didn’t yell once that EEG showed Tina’s been dodging the pills, and hoping that Steph didn’t get too crazy with the vengeance, and that Hels would hear some news about Dylan and that Peggy would help her daughter track Dylan down, and fanning myself over that call of Bette’s that didn’t quite make it to voicemail, and cheering on Al and Carmen’s rescue of Dana from that Aryan-esque creep-all freaking bloody AWESOME- because all I can think about now is that SOME NUTJOB-Steph? Josh? Marcus?-TOOK ANGELICA! For the love of all things, I so hope you’re posting soon, Portia. But still, this was so good I have to say it thrice, AWESOME! Thank you for the chapter. I literally cannot wait for the next chapter. Cheers
Loved the quote: Gladwell who told a story that a friend of his told him: ‘to a worm in a jar of horseradish, the whole world is horseradish.’ … Glad you’re turning S3 & S4 horseradish into something far more palatable… ;-)
This was beyond belief, every time you post you amaze me, your writing is without fault, exceptional, brilliant, outstanding. My head is swimming…I see the season being what it should have been, thankyou. I know you take a while between posts, obviously it takes time to write…but plspls if you could don’t leave us hanging too long…really it’s going to kill me to wait…but I will, every patiently…THANKYOU PORTIA
Bette’s struggles at the Buddhist retreat, her desperate, heartbreaking attempts to communicate with Tina, that amazing “voicemail,” and all the other storylines are a tour de force, pure and simple. How totally cool to discover that you drew on Ossie Davis’s own words in your wonderfully rich portrayal of Melvin. Missing Baby A, needless to say, is a cliffhanger extraordinaire. A huge thanks for the effort you’ve put into this awesome story.
thanks! the time and effort that must go into this is unbelievable. please know how much i look forward to one of your updates.
What an absolutely brilliant story you continue to weave! I am awed that you are able to develop each character so fully. Loved, loved, loved your description of Bette lost in her memories of their reconnection during the ultrasound and subsequent afternoon delight. So sizzling hot while tender at the same time. Great read, Portia!
oh no, not the baby…what a cliffhanger…please,please keep the baby safe and get bette home asap…great as always
what a chapter… there was so much… stephine is a nut case… henry is at times not all there either… and i’m glad tina is getting better… all those meds… damm… enough is enough… but now to the important part… WHO THE HELL TOOK ANGIE… i hope it was maybe alice or shane and they just turn around with her in their arms… it better not be josh… if it is… well he will be dead in the next chapter… PPS…
First, I must say thank you for this extraordinary chapter. I’ve been home sick for three days and barely able to focus on anything but your 82 pages (damn, 82 pages!) kept me awake and reading. For some reason I had thought that you were finishing this story with this chapter (I don’t know why I thought that) so I was really excited to see that this wasn’t the end. I know how much time and effort it takes to write just two or three pages so I am truly impressed with this magnum opus!!
I’m leaving a comment in advance as there’s no way I can read 82 pages right now. FUCKING AWESOME! I didn’t even have to read the chapter to know that. lol
Wow!That was awesome! by far this is the longest psot I have ever reading! If your not thinking about a book please do so. You have some awesome talent!!! As for Baby, the suspects were set-up perfectly! Stephanie, Josh, Marcus. But you know I somepoint I had a feeling this would happen and for some reason I had Theresa as the perptrator! Can’t wait for the next chapter!
Amazing, this chapter was just amazing the journeys you take us on in Bette’s memory are priceless. The advice her father gave her to the different expereinces between her parents have all been such amazing insight. Excellent. I just needed to tell you what an awesome job you’ve done. Thanks for writing it.
i can’t wait for the next chapter either this story is the bomb i enjoy stories that includes most of the gang..the arm licking was funny, weird but i thought it was cute lol :) grrrrrrreat work you do danish so well!!!
Fabulous! Please don’t let anything happen to Angelica, especially cuz her mama B is on her way home. I don’t know how either women could cope without her. Bring Dylan back for poor Helena. And tell Carmen to get that stick out of her butt :). Love, love, loved it! Can’t wait for more! Thanks Portia