I asked her..

“why?”

she responded saying…

“because I fucked everything up…I let someone come between us…just to know that even know that you haven’t been with no one else besides me made it worse…I screwed the best thing in my life and now your pregnant with out child…just seeing that there’s nothing that I could do to get my old life back hurts me the most because I was being greedy with wanting to see if the grass was greener on the other side…”

I said…

“well was it?”

she replies saying…

“no…I was a fool and I turned my back on you…and I’ve been trying to put it all together for the past couple of months…with constantly replaying the moment where I could of stopped myself and I never once tried…I remember wanting to so bad but I couldn’t control it…”

I look away from the brunette and I begin to get angry hearing the truth before me…but I breath and try not to become frustrated…I did tell her if she needed an ear that I could be here for her…I looked back at her when she said…

“and then what made matters worse was I never once came back and told you…I tried to blame it all on you and I never looked at the whole picture from both’s sides…yours and mine…”

so I say…

“why did you do it?”

she swallows hard and says…

“I don’t know…I honestly don’t know…I guess because I was afraid to tell you the truth”

I say…

“and that was?”

she says…

“the truth that everything was falling apart at work…from the part when Franklin was breathing down my neck about provacations….with having to make sure that I hired reliable contrators that fit the budget…and also caring for you…the worse part was when you lost the baby the first time…I felt like I had to be the one to carry the wagon up the hill…and I was pushing and pushing and then suddenly…I collapsed falling-”

I cut her off and said…

“into Candace’s lap…”

she looks over at me wide eyed…the more I listened the more it made me sick…but I was understanding where she was coming from…I said

” well we were having our problems at home and I’ll admit you was carrying everything..you never let me interfere with anything…and personally as a woman I could of helped a bit more holding my ground around the house…so it’s not all your fault…I just hope that you learned your lesson because there are couples that go through what we go through Bette and they never speak afterwards…the reason why I still speak with you even today is because I honestly love you…it’s just that at times I find it hard to forgive you…and it doesn’t give me the right to drag you through dirt like your nothing…I really hope that you learned you lesson”

I look over at her and she looks at me and said…

“I did…and if that means dedicating every day to you I would…”

I smile and say…

“I know…lets just take it a day at a time…okay?”

the brunette smiles at me and says…

“sure…I’d love that”

I lean over and hug her tight…I kiss her on the cheek and open the car door…I close it after myself and say….

“hey…call me tomorrow…we’ll talk more”

a smile brightens wide on her face…she says…

“I will…goodnight T”

I smile back and say

“goodnight Bette”

she waits for me to go inside before she pulls off…I watch her go and wave her off…I made my way upstairs and into the house…I undressed and layed back down…I thought of Bette and the words that escaped her mouth…even though I didn’t like what she said.. above all things she came to me and she told me the truth…her shedding tears in front of me showed me another side of her…her confessing to me also added to this…she’s not as powerful as she looks…and you know what they say about looks…. they can be deceiving…hmmm…so deep down inside she’s just as fragile as me and the first thing that she’s needs to do is express herself more freely…I would love that…it would be kind of a new beginning for us both…I smiled and turned to my side and closed my eyes…I drifted off to sleep…

TBC…