What the ***** was Eric doing at the restaurant!!! Its been weeks since I told him it was over. I was mad out of my mind that he even followed me there. And Bette! My god Bette. She was so calm when Eric appeared out of nowhere. God knows what he said to her, but being the amazing woman that she is, she managed to handle things well. I stole glances at Bette on the way to her house. She thought of taking me back to my place but I wasnt sure that was a good idea as Eric might come over to harass us. So we decided to get some takeaways and go over to Bettes since none of us were in the mood to go out anyway.

Bette took us to this restaurant where she did most of her takeaways – Chinese restaurant. The food smelled delicious and on the way to her place, I could hear my tummy making small noises, an indication that it needed some feeding.

As Bette turned the corner and parked her car I noticed why she lives there. The building looks new and there even was a small garden in front. The entire place looks like a picture out of a magazine. Its just so like her.

Bette: Here we are. Let me just get the food out from the back and then we can go in.

As we took the elevator to level ten, I looked at Bette carefully. I never saw it but was that nervousness? Is she nervous? She was looking up at the level indicator rather impatiently; her fingers were tapping on the paper bag. I wonder what makes her nervous. She turned to face me and gave me a weak smile. I cant help but smile back; shes rather cute when shes nervous.

TING!!!!!

The elevator doors open and Bette held them for me. She unlocked her door to her apartment and let me in.

Bette: Please come in. And do make yourself at home. Im just going to prepare the food so we can eat. Im sure youre very hungry Tina. (And then she smiles which made me blush as I knew she could here my tummy complain)

I looked around her living room. Very empty yet trendy. She has a huge painting on her wall just above where her TV sits. The color of the painting accentuates the room. Its actually the only thing that stands out in the room apart from Bette herself. Bette returned with a bottle of wine and two glasses and handed one to me.

Tina: Thank you Bette. This is a nice place you have here Bette.

Bette: Glad you think so too. Umm shall we eat?

Tina: Yeah come on.

Dinner as promised was great and we talked about things we havent apart from the episode at the restaurant. I still feel guilty about dragging Bette into this.

Tina: Bette, Im really sorry about what happened at the restaurant. I didnt anticipate it to happen. I mean I didnt even know Eric had followed me there.

Bette: Please Tina. Dont apologize. It wasnt your fault. I mean who were you to know someone was watching your every move. Who knows what hes been doing all this time.

Tina: I know but Eric isnt like that. I guess he just needed a proper closure.

Bette: Tina, can I ask you something?

I just looked at her and smiled.

Bette: Why didnt you tell me it was over between you and Eric? I mean I know its none of my business but since weve been hanging out and all

Tina: Im sorry about that Bette I wanted to but it just never came up. I mean, we dont really talk about those stuff and I figured, knowing how you felt about me, I just didnt want to hurt you by talking about him.

Bette: Tina, I understand that youre straight. I get that however much I find you attractive. But I also know where to draw the line. It pained me to know that I couldnt have you but I have to respect what you are and what you believe in so thats why Im never going to pursue you

Just as the words came out, I felt a stab in my chest. Shes never going to pursue me? What is wrong with this picture? I thought if I told her I wasnt with Eric, shed see a window open for her to step in and take the opportunity. But shes never going to pursue me? Ever? What is that?

Bette: Erm, Tina? Are you ok?

I looked at her my mind was far away thinking about the one person I want to be with who was right there in front of me.

Tina: Yeah Im just Im ok Bette.

Bette: Well since were done with dinner, why dont we sit in the living room? You go ahead and Ill clear this up then we can talk some more. No please Ill do it.

I sat up and went to the living room collecting myself as I try to think of a way to make her see how much I want her and how much she still wants me and how good WE could be. I downed the wine in hand

Bette: Hey easy there. Take it slow, I still have more in the kitchen.

I smiled and let her refill my glass.

Bette, (Tina): You look, (I just want to)

We both laughed at our simultaneous openings.

Bette: You first Tina

Tina: No no after you.

Bette: Okay I just wanted to let you know how amazing you look tonight Tina. You really are beautiful.

Oh my, that just did it. I blushed! My cheeks were getting warm. And I bet she could see right through me and what I was thinking.

Bette: Im sorry I just had to say it.

Tina: Its ok.

Bette: Its your turn What was is that you wanted to say?

Tina: Umm Bette, do you think, I mean do you think it is possible that to be I mean, how did you know you were *****? Oh Im sorry I mean I didnt mean to ask you flat out I just

Bette: Its ok Tina. Why dont you sit down? Things just happen you know? Like you realize youre just not into guys and youre into girls. Just like when you fall for someone. You just know. Theres no reason to it. It just is. You just feel it.

Tina: Oh but how can you be so sure that you are?

Bette smiled.

Bette: You mean like how can I be so sure about falling in love?

Tina: I mean how can you be so sure about being a *****? Do you just wake up one day and say Im a *****. And then the next day you say Ill just be straight?

Bette: Thats funny you should put it that way. Tina, have you ever been in love? Because you can wake up one day and say oh my god I love someone but you cant say Ill just not love that someone today Love comes naturally whether you like it or not. However much you push that feeling aside, you cant lie to your heart. Your heart knows what is best for you, it knows the whole truth

I contemplated what Bette was telling me. I know in my heart that I was falling for her but how do I know for sure this isnt just a passing and how do I know if I really am straight or ***** for that matter? How do I know which one I am? I stared at Bette and saw how beautiful those eyes are, how I want so much for those hands to hold me and how much I want those lips to be on mine.

Tina: Bette, I know what my heart is telling me to do. Please dont pull away

I leaned in and slowly but gently placed my lips on hers. Bette was sitting very still but placed her hand behind my back nonetheless. I placed my hand on her shoulder and she started to give in to the kiss. The memory of the first kiss at the gallery came flooding back to me. The kiss was so soft and passionate that I didnt want it to end. I didnt want to seem too eager so I broke the kiss awaiting for Bettes response. I looked at her unsure of what I was expecting.

Bette swallowed hard. She stared at me with twinkle in her eyes.

Bette: Tina I

Bettes phone rang.

Bette: I

Phone continued ringing.

Bette: I uhmm maybe I should get that?

I just nodded. Great timing whoever was calling!!! Just my luck. Bette smiled apologetically and walked over to get the phone.

Bette: Hello?

I watched Bette and wondered who could be on the phone this late. I noticed Bettes expression changed as she turned the other way to hide her face from me. What is going on here? Is everything ok? Who was that? And why did she have to turn away? My heart raced as I thought of all the possible things and prayed it wasnt who I thought it was