Bette was screaming: I love you, I love you I love you. Stop, stop it , stop it. Then a high pitched scream, followed by more screams of stop. Tina knew immediately that she was having her usual nightmare. She started to shake Bette gently and say her name over and over again. Bette finally popped open her eyes, and looked around trying to orient herself.
Bette: Tina, Tina. Whats going on? God, I had that damn nightmare again. Its so real; it scares the ***** out of me.
Tina: Shhh baby, its alright, Im right here with you and Im not going to ever let you go again. Youve got to calm down. Take nice deep breaths, thats it, breathe for me baby.
Bette started taking long deep breaths while she held onto Tina with all her might. This couldnt be good for the baby, her heart was beating way to face and her stomach was tied up in knots.
Bette felt herself starting to relax after a few minutes and she eased herself away from Tina. She saw so much concern in Tinas eyes that she reached up to gently stroke Tinas cheek and then leaned in and gave her a kiss..
Tina: Bette, we have got to figure out how to get you past this. Its not healthy for you and certainly not for the baby. What has your therapist said about this?
Bette: Weve talked about it over and over again. What happened, what I was feeling during the whole incident. Im not sure what more I can do, but there has got to be something.
Tina: You know, weve actually never talked about it. Weve skirted around it a million times very superficially but weve never really talked it through. Maybe if we do we can both get past it. I know it still haunts me too. Im not proud of what I did that night. Its almost like I was a different person.
Bette: Exactly.
Tina: Okay, since were both up lets just do it and get it over with as long as youre feeling up to it.
Bette: You start, before I chicken out.
Tina: I had almost 2 hours to stew over what I had seen at the provocations opening. The intimacy between you and Candace nearly drove me insane with jealousy and guilt.
Bette: Guilt?
Tina: I knew from the way you touched her that the two of you had made love and I started thinking about how we had drifted apart, especially after I lost the baby. I had to admit to myself that even though I had pushed you into therapy I had also been pushing you away. Throwing myself into work, not making the time to just sit and talk with you. We had stopped doing that such a long time ago. Then I got furious with myself for taking any of the blame. How dare you throw 7 years away? You cheated on me, how could you? I thought you were morally corrupt and deserved to be punished. So when we got home and you tried to hug me, after admitting to the affair, I just snapped. I wanted to hurt you the way you had hurt me and if I couldnt do it emotionally then I would do it physically. The sick part is that once you threw me on that bed and ripped my dress I became aroused and I hated myself and you even more. But then I figured I might as well go for it and have one last ***** with you. I thought of it as a good bye gift for me and a reminder for you of what you lost.

Bette had been watching and listening to Tina intently as she told her part of the story. How she regretted causing Tina that much pain. She choked back her tears as Tina finished.
Tina: We both dosed off for a bit afterwards and when I woke up I was engulfed by sadness and regret. I knew I could never trust you again and I would never give myself so completely to someone. I wouldnt open myself up to that much hurt ever again.
Bette: Do you still feel that way T? Things feel so good between us, but are you holding back?
Tina: No Bette. No matter how hard I tried I could never get over you. No one else ever measured up. I always had a special bond with you, a feeling of safety and love that Ive never had with anyone else. When you came back into my life I had to face those feelings and when I gave you the heart necklace I meant it. You have my heart and soul Bette and thats why its so important to me that we make peace with the past.
Bette: When you confronted me that night my whole world turned black. I knew by the venom in your voice and the slap you gave me that you were going to leave and never come back. Looking back I realize that something broke inside of me and I went a bit crazy. I needed to prove my love to you and since words werent going to work I tried to show you. God, I almost raped you Tina. I was so out of control.
Tina: But Bette, you didnt rape me; I wanted to feel your touch as much as you wanted to prove your love. We were both out of control. There were two of us in that room and we both had a part. What about me biting you over and over again? We both did terrible things and at least now we know what the other was thinking and feeling. The most important thing is that we are back together and more in love than ever before. We have a chance at our happily ever after and nothing is going to stop that from happening.
Bette: I dont know how I got so lucky T. Im truly blessed.
Bette took Tina into her arms and kissed her slowly and softly. Tina opened her mouth inviting in Bettes tongue. As Bette pushed her tongue into Tinas mouth, Tina moaned and grabbed the back of Bettes head to bring them as close together as possible. Tina slid one had down the length of Bettes body with a feather light touch. She did this over and over again until her hand settled on Bettes left breast. Again, with an unbearably light touch she stroked the breast and the nipple until it became rock hard. Tina broke their kiss and used her mouth on the other breast, slowly, teasingly making little circles and then she took the hard nib into her mouth. She bit down gently causing Bette to cry out: Oh T, please go lower. Tina obliged, again with a feather light touch she moved her hand down Bettes body, caressing her backside, down her leg, back up to her inner thigh and then gently she stroked Bettes *****, eliciting another moan from Bette: inside T, please go inside. Tina ignored Bettes pleas momentarily as she concentrated again using her tongue to draw circles around Bettes nipples alternating between each breast, while her index finger lightly drew circles around her *****. At this point Bettes hips were coming off the bed, begging for Tina to increase her pressure. Finally, simultaneously Tina bit down hard on Bettes right nipple and plunged 2 fingers into Bettes wetness. A few strokes were all it took. Bettes body convulsed into the strongest ***** Tina had ever seen her have. Tina kept her hands inside Bette until she stopped contracting. She lifted her head up to see Bette a look of pure joy on Bettes face.
Bette: Come here baby. Let me give you a kiss. That was unbelievable. Youve never teased me like that before.
Tina: Well, I did learn a few things while we were apart.
Bette: Promise youll show me more soon.
Tina: I promise. I love you Bette.
Bette: I love you too. Thank you baby.
Tina: For what.
Bette: For loving me, and making me feel safe.
Tina laid her head on Bettes chest and they fell asleep in each others arms, with Tina saying a silent prayer that Bette would no longer have her nightmare.