If it will be a senorita my god I very fully intended to do marriage. But I don’t know when will that day will come. Inshallah I don’t think, but I think THE ONE that I want in my life till death is not men. My heart always says to me that there is a woman out their for me. Waiting for me somewhere in the corner of this world, and I am too….thinking of me dreaming of me in her sleep like I do.

But let me tell you one thing that I love tina Kennard now also . I told you little about her. She was my first love of my life. and I will never ever forget her. Even if we meet in our old age in future. You know the first time I met her . I felt the spark, the electricity jolt. My body shivered I don’t know why. I was so confused .and then after day by day I realized that it was love . I was in love with her.

You know I waited three years just to tell her I love her. but you know what when I told her finally after three years. She freaked out, she rejected my calls, related to me everything she rejected it.

I tried to call her everyday after that. But she doesn’t attend my calls. But then one day she accepted the call because she don’t know that I was on the phone. And then when I told her that “HI I AM BETTE”. She got silent,and I said hello repeatedly. I got afraided that she might disconnected it. But then several seconds later she said in her harsh tone.

“DON’T EVER TRY TO CALL ME,I DON’T WANT TO TALK TO YOU. UNDERSTAND…” and ended the call.

After that I cried out my heart hardly, because first of the way she talked to me. And second I lost my love of my life and my best friend forever also. I don’t know that moment I thought that how I can will live without her in my whole life.

I started to think about our sweet memories in our college that we spent together. After that I cried even harder..

(1)        I WILL MISS HER DAZZLING SMILE.

(2)        I WILL MISS HER BEAUTIFUL EYES THE WAY SHE BLINKS TOWARDS ME FOR PURPOSE.

(3)        I WILL MISS HER TOUCH. THE TOUCH OF WARM AND COMFORT. WHICH I WILL DIE JUST FOR FEELING IT ONCE AGAIN.

(4)        I WILL MISS HER NOSE.EVERYTIME SHE GETS ANGRY, SHE WILL FLARE IT…. SO HOT…!

(5)        I WILL MISS HER LIPS . THE WAY SHE MOVES WHILE TALKING.

(6)        I WILL MISS HER HANDS . THE WAY SHE SQUEEZES MINE WHILE WALKING.

(7)        I WILL MISS HER BODY. THE WAY SHE PUT HER ARM AROUND MY WAIST AND LEAN HER BODY ON ME….

                            SO ON…….

And I surprised myself by not missing her too much within three or four months. It was only possible bcoz I have not seen her in three years.

  I am happy for that. Coz I don’t want to live in past memories of our’s every minute. I want to live my life, because I am only 20 years , and there is lot gonna happen in future of my life. I want to prepare myself for to go through it. I want to move on. God knows there is someone else who is THE ONE waiting for me. And I am waiting for her inpatiently.

And inshallah I will find her soon at right time.

So bye for now then I will come soon ,,

BYE DAIRY///………….

And don’t forgetthat I will never stop loving tina Kennard….

                             THE END