Bette: Oh my God. I was right wasnt I? This is too much for you. I knew this was a bad idea. I shouldve just worked through these on my own. Ive scared you now, havent I. Ive said too much and now Ive pushed you away. I knew this was too soon. What have I done now?

Tina immediately rolled over so that she could look Bette in the eyes. She knew how hard this had been for Bette and she wanted to console her, to let her know it was okay. She understood Bettes apprehension now. She took her hand and ran her fingers down the side of Bettes face.

Tina: Shhhhh, Baby. Its okay. Im right here and Im not going anywhere. Im glad you told me. Baby, I felt a lot of the same things when we first split up. Theres nothing wrong with having fears. I assure you, we will get through them. It will take some time, but we will be okay. I love you so much Baby. Nothing can change that.

Bette: How can you say that, T? How can you know for sure? I mean, Im not even the same person anymore. How can you say you love me if you havent even had time to get to know the person Ive become? *****, I dont even know who I am anymore.

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Tina: Baby, listen to me. I love you and that is not ever going to change. We have both been through a lot this last year, but even through all the pain, anger, and everything else that we went through, our love has survived. That says a lot Babe.

Bette: But what if you dont like the person Ive become, T? What if you decide you dont want to spend the rest of your life with me?

Tina: Baby, you might not feel like the same person because of everything that has happened, you might have even changed some because of it all, but different or not, you are the person that I am meant to spend the rest of my life with. When I was without you, there was a deep void in my soul. I dont ever want to feel that emptiness again. You complete me Baby. You make me feel safe and loved. So we will just have get to know each other again, because Im not letting you go. Im in this for the long haul.

And as we work through things, well probably need to make some more changes. Change isnt necessarily bad, Babe, changes can be good. One thing we definitely need to change is keeping things from each other and I know that I was just as guilty of that as you were, but I promise not to shut you out anymore. I dont like the path that it took us on and I dont ever want to go down that road again.

Bette: I dont either, T. I have been trying my best to be open and honest with you. Its not easy for me, but through all of this, that is one of the things I have learnt I need to do. It is also one of my biggest regrets, because I feel that if I had just talked with you and let you in on what I was feeling after we lost the baby that I could have spared us all of this misery. I was just so afraid of letting you see the real me. I was so afraid of losing you if you saw how weak I had become. Pretty ironic, huh? I ended up losing you anyway.

Tina: Baby, we both lost our way for a little while, but we made it back to each other. Now you just need to work on forgiving yourself. A lot of your fears are thriving on the fact that you havent done that. Baby, you made a mistake, a mistake that you have paid dearly for, but now you need to put it behind you so you can move forward and let yourself be happy again. Baby, I have forgiven you, so please try and forgive yourself.


Bette: I am trying T, but it is really difficult. I mean, it was more than just a mistake. I went against everything I believed in. Not only did I lose you, but I lost myself as well. Who am I without my convictions?

Tina: Baby, your convictions are still there. They just got lost in the midst of all the emotional turmoil you were struggling with. Just because you lost your way and had a lapse in judgment, doesnt mean your convictions are gone forever. You are only human, Baby. We all make mistakes, but we can learn from them, grow from them. And so far, the changes I have seen in you have all been for the better. You are learning to open up more, you are letting me see your emotions, you are sharing things that you never did before. These are all good things Baby. These are things that will bring us closer, not drift us apart. You need to stop being so hard on yourself, Babe.

Bette: You make it all sound so easy, T. But you know its not that simple. Its going to take me some time to work through all of this. How is that fair to you? I have put you through enough already. I dont want you to suffer anymore at my hands. You deserve so much more than what I have to offer right now.

Tina: Bette, do you love me?

Bette: Of course I do, I love you with all of my heart T, I have never stopped loving you. I just dont know if love is enough.

Tina: And what makes you think you should be making these decisions on your own? Dont you think they are important enough that I should have some say in them too?

Bette: Of course you should Tina. Im not trying to decide things without you. Im just trying to be fair to you. I dont want to cause you anymore pain.

Tina: Baby, you cant always protect me from pain. That is why it is so important for us to talk to each other. You have the tendency to shut me out for the sake of keeping me from harm. But, Babe, you need to stop doing that. You cant decide things for me on your own just because you think you know what is best. We need to decide what is best together. And sometimes there will be some pain involved, but as long as we are there for each other, we will get through it. I want you to listen to me Bette, because I happen to think that our love is enough. I am willing to move at whatever pace you are comfortable with, you just have to let me know what that is.

Bette: How fair is that to you T? How about what you need, what you want?

Tina: Baby, I have had more than enough time to decide what it is I want. And what I want the most happens to be a life with you and I know you want the same thing. I could see it when I watched your video and I can see it now by looking into your eyes. So in an effort to squelch some of your fears, let me make some things perfectly clear to you. You, Bette Porter, are more than enough for me. There is no one in this world that can make me happier than you do. I love you with all that I am and I will continue to love you till the day that I die. Together we will work through whatever hurts and disappointments we run into along the way and we will never again push one another away from each other. We are a family now, Babe, and I will do everything in my power to keep us from ever drifting apart again. So what do you say? Are you in this with me?


Bette: I say I am the luckiest woman in the world to have found someone as utterly amazing, loving, forgiving and beautiful as you. I cant believe that I have been blessed twice by being given another chance to share my life with you. I promise to be a better partner to you this time around. I promise to come to you with my fears and insecurities. I promise I will never break your heart again by being unfaithful. I promise to love you and cherish you with all that I am, never to take you or our love for granted again. T, I give myself to you completely. Nothing held back this time. I promise to never hide a part of me from you again. All that I am I give to you. My complete heart and soul are yours T, please take care of them.

Tina: Baby, nothing would give me greater pleasure. I assure you I will take very good care of them both. So, how do you feel Babe? That wasnt so bad now, was it?

Bette: Honestly, I feel much better T. I think this sharing stuff is going to be easier than I thought. It has actually made me feel much closer to you. I kind of feel a little foolish for being so afraid before.

Tina: Babe, you never need to feel foolish about anything. I think we are going to do just fine this time around. I can feel it.

Bette: You know Babe, I think you are right. I think I can actually feel it too. Now what do you say you cuddle up over here next to me and we take that nap?

Tina: I would say that is the best offer I have had all day.

Bette: Is that so, Babe?

Tina: Well, the day is not over yet.

Bette: Ill try to keep that in mind. I love you Tina Kennard.

Tina: And I love you Bette Porter.

It isnt long before the whole Kennard-Porter household is sleeping peacefully.