Always On My Mind

I feel her lips on mine. I feel the weight of her on top of me, fitting the length of me perfectly. I moan into the kiss, letting her tongue enter and tease me.

The warmth of her body, the smell of her, the taste in my mouth makes me instantly wet.
Soon we are finding that perfect rhythm we know each other enjoys so well. Our hips are grinding into each other. Hands are roaming, exploring. Fingers touching, teasing.

God this feels so good. Its always been this way with us. From the beginning, every touch, every kiss has been so electric. So much so you just know other people actually see the sparks fly.

She whispers in my ear that she loves me and always will. I smile and say the same.
Her body shifts and I feel her sliding down, taking my nipples in her mouth. She takes one then the other, looking up at me and smiling, as she knows I love what she is doing.

Soon she moves lower, leaving a trail of kisses down my body. She takes her hand and spreads my legs apart, with one finger she touches my wetness. Its flowing out of me freely now. She moans as she discovers this. She kisses my thighs, sucking on the soft skin on the inside of them. She then spreads my lips, my ***** throbbing for attention.

She takes her fingers and without warning enters me. God she knows exactly what I want. As she strokes me slowly her mouth finds my *****, she sucks on it eagerly, causing me to buck my hips into her.

I pull her close, my hands getting lost in her hair. She takes her fingers out and enters me with her tongue. Faster and deeper she goes until I cant hold back. I scream as I explodeTTTTIIINNNNAAA!!!!!

The screaming wakes me upanother dream..another night with out her. It makes me stop and look around; the dreams are always so real.

I take her pillow and hug it tight as I do most nights when I wake up looking for her. I have no one to blame but myself. But god it hurts so badly. Ive never known pain like this.

I think of her every moment. Every thing I do, she is here in my mind. I try to sleep thinking this will shut my mind off. But always I end up having a dream of her, wanting her. Sometimes I dream of that last nightSometimes I dream of us just having dinner.or shopping..or watching TV..and laughing.

I miss that laugh so much, the sparkle in her eyes as she smiles. The look of love she gives me just as she is falling asleep. The feel of her hand just holding mine.
Her in my arms after we make love.

I must suffer for what Ive done. I realize this. I need to fix me so I can fix us.
Its just so hard, doing it with out her.

I have faith we will someday be together again.
I know she still loves me, I hear it in her voice when we talk; I see it in her eyes.
I love her with all I am. I am determined.
She is my soul mate. Forever and always.

So I try to find peace again in sleepknowing eventually I will find her in my dreams.

Its my way of being close to her..until I have her here in my arms againuntil our someday happens.