Hey, its meI, errjust wanted to let you know that I love you. Im so sorry baby, Im so sorry. I love you so much and thisits killing me, not knowing where you are. Please, call me when you get this, so I know youre ok. Please. I love you, T, so much. I just need to know youre ok.

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Baby, please, where are you? I know I fucked up, and Im so sorry for hurting you. I love you baby, please ring me. I need to know youre ok.

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ErmAlice just rang. She told me youre staying with her. I…please baby, come home? I love you, I do. Please?

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Ok, Im beginning to get the hint. Im so sorry, T, you have to believe me. Please, justcall me. Its been two days, Tina. Two. Whole. Days. Ive been going out of my mind! Please, call me.

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Hey, errAlice called me, asked if she could come get some stuff of yours. II couldnt go in thein thebedroom…err, so Alice had to pack your clothes. I hope she got the right stuff. I gave her your mail too. Theres one in there from your mother, and one from Liz. We got one from that Ugandan boy we adopted last year, too, but I cant pronounce his name. Anyway, he sent a hand print, so I put that in there for you. ErmIm dying without you, T. I cant sleep, I cant eat. I cant even ***** work, because my attention span is too short. I think about you all the time, Tina, I need you! Please, call me, or return my answer message, or something. I justI need to hear your voice.

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Ok, ermAlice hasnt called, so Im guessing you dont need any more stuff. I was thinking, T, maybe I should gostay with Kit or something. And you could stay at the house. If you wanted, maybe. I mean, you deserve the house, I dont. Not afterwhat I did. Well, its a thought. If you want it that way thencall me. Or get Alice to call me. Id rather if you called me, I miss you. Inever mind, you probably arent listening to my messages anyway.

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TIsorry, you dont need to listen to me cry. Im justIm so lonely, Tina, I miss you. I love you so much. Im sorry.

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Hey, T, its me. I went to see a therapist today, of my own free will. I fucked up, Tina, I know I did, and I will do anything to make it right. Let me know what you want me to do, and Ill do it. Please, I hate not knowing where we stand. I just need to know if I have a chance. Call me.

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Two weeks, Tina. Two ***** weeks. And I havent heard a word from you, Im going out of my mind! Do you really hate me that much? Actually, dont answer that.

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I saw you today, with the gang. I was going to go into The Planet, but I saw you all sat outside. God, you looked so beautiful, T. Inever mind.

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Hey, I had a really good session with my therapist today. Well, not good as in fun, because you know I hate therapy. I mean good as in there was a lot of headway. I never realised how much influence my father hashad on my life. All my life Ive aimed for perfection to please my father, even though that will never happen – yes, Ive been talking to Kit too! – and I thought admitting I needed to be held and comforted would make me less of a person. I felt I had to be the strong one, and I wanted so bad to ease your pain, but I didnt know how. I was so out of control, and for me, that is so scary. You know what Im like, I have to be in control all the time, and I wasnt and I hated it. So I

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Sorry about that, the message ran out. Where was I? Oh yeah, so I tried to gain control again. And, well, this isnt something Im proud of, butbefore I met you I used to have a lot of one night stands. I used to have meaningless ***** with some stranger, have one night of oblivion and forget everything else that was going on in my life. And thats what I needed, T, just the chance to forget all the ***** that was happening. I needed to forget that wed lost our baby boy, that my career was on the line and could be over in a flash, that my father still wouldnt accept our relationship. I needed you to help me, but when I tried to connect with you, you just pushed me away. Whenever I tried to touch you, you shrugged my hands off and

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Hey, the machine ran out again. Im not trying to blame you, it wasnt your fault. Im just trying to let you know what was going through my head. Im sorry, Tina. Im terrified that Ive lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Please, if there is any chance for us, then call me. Please.

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Well, you havent rung, so I guess that means there isnt a chance for us. II just hope youre happy, T. I want to be your friend; I cant imagine my life without you in it in some way, shape or form. Call me, and we could go out, yunno, like friends do.

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Hey, I heard you got a new job. Congratulations! Alice told me, shes dead proud of you. I hope it goes well. She also told me that you were thinking of getting your own apartment. Im going to sell the house, cause theres no one living there, so Ill give the papers that you need to sign to Alice. Ill get the joint accounts sorted out too. ErmI meant what I said about wanting to be friends, and I asked Alice what you said about it, and she said that you would find it too hard. Im sorry, if you ever change your mind, Id love to be your friend.

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Hi, its Bette. You didnt call, so I guessed that the money came through ok. ErmI just wanted to let you know that Im moving. To New York. Im not really sure why Im telling you anyway, cause its not like we talk anymore, butit just seemed wrong to leave without telling you. I havent told the girls yet, but Im on my way to do that now. Ermbye.

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Hello, Tina. Its Bette. Im not sure if you use this number anymore – after all, it has been two years since we spoke. But, I just thought Id let you know that Im coming back to LA for a quick visit, and Id love to see you. Id love to see your son too, Alice told me all about him. Says he takes after you; I bet hes lovely. Anyway, Ill be in town until 11th August, and Ill be meeting the girls to catch up. If you want to join us, Id be delighted to see you. Ok, bye.

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Hey, Tina, its Bette. Alice sent me a copy of your wedding photo, and you looked beautiful. Your husband is very handsome too, you make a lovely couple. And, blimey, your kids have grown! I cant believe Alistair is ten now, its been so long. He looked very smart, you must be so proud. Anyway, just thought Id call you and congratulate you. I hope youre as happy as you deserve to be.

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Hey, Tina. ErmI just got off the phone to Alice. Sheshe told me that youre ill. ErrIm really sorry to hear that, T. Iif you need any help with medical costs, call me, Alice has my number. Ive got more than I need, so its no problem, really. ErmI hope youre ok.

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