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    Abyss 2

    Story written on October 9, 2006 by moho.
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    Story Shortlink: https://assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=62776
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    Bette’s Thoughts

    I am desperate. Desperate to fix this, to repair this gap that has grown so wide between me and Tina. I look at her and I still see my joy, my love, my life. I can’t say that I know what I would do without her.

     

    I try to reach out to her, to re-connect with her in some way. I go into her office each afternoon, to just sit and talk. Sometimes she doesn’t even look up from her computer. I am discouraged. This is hard. I throw myself into the business to have some semblance of relief and some semblance of accomplishment. I need that sense of accomplishment, because I am not excelling in the love department right now. Work has always been my escape, not one of my better qualities I must admit. Maybe, I neglected Tina for too long, maybe we have just grown apart. It’s all speculation; I don’t truly know how we got here and I am not sure that ‘how’ matters.

     

    At this juncture, I am embarrassed. Too embarrassed to tell anyone, that Tina and I are really just roommates. We ceased to be lovers long ago. I choose to keep my pain to myself. How can I look at Alice, Shane and the others and admit that we’re a fraud. We’ve sold you a bill of goods; Bette and Tina are on the verge of collapse. I am not sure that they have any idea. I can’t bring myself to say this stuff out loud; I guess that’s why I have started to journal. I need some outlet. The only thing is; it seemed to work for me in the beginning and now? Well, now it’s just pure torture. Whenever, I re-read an entry I relive the pain. There is no relief.

     

    There are times that I look at her, I want to take her in my arms and make it all better. Make love to her tenderly; stroke her body in the way that I used to. I don’t even try. And I am so used to existing without touch, that I pull away from her whenever she puts a hand out to attempt to touch me in any way.  

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    2. Both entries are really deep, powerful and amazing. Its amazing that both are feeling the same but neither is inclined to make a change.. it seems both are stuck on stupid. I think they need some intervention from there friends, especially if they keep playng roommates. I have been there before and it sucks. Bette will surely flip out once she finds out that Tina cheated twice. What’s it gonna take for them to talk?

    4. Well, little Miss Virgin NoMo……what a powerful beginning. I can identify with this. I am living this now. And it’s stultifying, suffocating but oh so routine. Bette will have a shit fit if she finds out about Tina.

    10. Wow, didn’t see this update when I read the first one. But like I said, its probably a place we’ve all been at one time or another, and it definitly sucks. These two so need to talk to each other, and I do agree that if Bette finds out Tina has fooled around, and more than once it may not be repairable. Sad thing is sometimes it all goes wrong and you have no idea why, then you let it go for so long, its almost impossible to find your way back. I have faith you will get us their as will the girls, because we have to have hope.

    11. Wonderful, but so frustrating. They want the same thing, if only someone would just speak up! Gr. And I agree with Lament. No WAY can this all be new to you.

    12. Its feel like they’re both in a state of uncomfortably numb. Please retain your purity :) we would be delight and content just to have you share such mature and insightful writing talent.

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