The kiss felt so perfect to each of them. Sure they had kissed lately, they had kissed before, but this was different. It was so tender and loving, both of the women taking their time to explore the other.

It could easily have been hours before they Spencer broke away and again opened her eyes slightly to look at Ashley’s face.

“Ash?” she asked carefully

“Yeah gorgeous?” Ashley loved complimenting her girlfriend after all she was beautiful.

“I… erm… never mind” Spencer spoke so quickly then kissed Ashley before hiding her face on Ashley chest again.

“Babe… if we are going to do this… we need to be honest with each other… I don’t want anymore drama… I just want to be with you… please talk to me…?” Ashley pleaded.

“Well I …. God this is gonna sound so juvenile… I was wondering how we stand on the whole….. More than making out… you know…. The sex part…. I mean I don’t wanna push you into anything after…. You know….. But you’re also pregnant…. And I dunno…. I mean I don’t want to hurt you…. Or smudge….. But I really want to touch you and kiss away all you pains…. But I don’t wanna do anything you don’t ….”

“Spence your rambling shut up and make love to me…” Ashley stated amused at Spencer’s obvious embarrassment even though this wasn’t their first time.

“Are you sure you want to… be you sure your ok with this…” Spencer asked her voice full of concern, she wasn’t trying to talk her out of it, defiantly, and she wanted nothing more than to spend all night making love to Ashley. But she also didn’t want to push her.

“Spence right now, when I think about sex it reminds me of him, because realistically the last time I had sex, was with him. If anything making love to you tonight will take that away, and not to sound cruel, but it will get the first time out of the way. I want the first time with you, I want to wake up in the morning and not think the last person who touched me was him, but to wake up smiling because the last person who touched me was you, and you touched me with all the love you have for me. But most of all I have missed your touch; I have missed you touching me. Lets face it in another few months I will be so big the only thing ill be good for is giving birth. “Ashley smiled sheepishly at Spencer. She had promised herself that she wouldn’t hold back anymore. She had come so close to losing her blonde angel once before and she was going to do everything she could to avoid losing her again.

Before she could even think another thought she felt Spencer’s passioned filled lips caressing hers. This was a definite change from the earlier kiss, it was still gentle and sweet but it was filled with unspoken I want you so much and I love you so much’s.