“That’s a really great clip to show Spence. You all looked really happy,” I said with a hint of sadness behind my eyes.

            “Um yeah it was a really great day for me. I am lucky to have such a great family and great friends too,” Spencer said a little hesitant. I guess she can see the sadness that my eyes are portraying. “Yeah you really are Spence. I’m glad you have a family like that. I wouldn’t wish my family on anyone and I am just glad that you don’t have to go through what I do. You don’t deserve anything like that,” I say with true conviction in my voice.

            “You don’t either Ash,” Spence says with a sad smile. “Yeah well at least I’m lucky enough to have great friends,” I say trying to stay somewhat positive. “Anyways, here is my video, if you want to put it in I’ll show you the clip I was thinking of using,” I say handing the DVD over to her. She gets up and puts it in and hands me the remote waiting for me to find the clip. As I press play I can’t help but be nervous about her seeing this. I think it’s one of the most vulnerable moments I have ever had in my life. I’m just glad I know she won’t judge me. As the clip starts to play I feel Spencer reach over take my hand in hers and give it a slight squeeze and watch as her face gives me a reassuring smile before she focuses back on the screen, her hand never leaving mine.

            The clip shows Aiden, Becca, and myself all sitting around in my room. Not really doing anything important. “So Ashley um where exactly are you parents?” Aiden asks knowing it’s a touchy subject. “I just look at him with sadness in my eyes. “My mom is in Cabbo I think, I’m not entirely sure. I haven’t heard from her in about a month. I don’t even think she knows it’s my birthday today,” I say while trying to hold back my tears as Aiden focuses the camera in on my face. “And my dad called this morning, he said something came up at the studio and he couldn’t get out of it. He said he was sorry but that he would make it up to me once he got back. He promised he would make it to my next birthday, but it’s not like I haven’t heard that same statement from him since I was twelve,” I say while briefly looking away from the camera. “He bought me a new car this time. I guess he thinks it makes up for him never being around. I just really thought this birthday would be different and that he would actually make it this time. But I guess I’m wrong to think that same thing every year because something always comes up.” And with that I get up and walk out of the room.