NPOV

 "so what do you want to do today Nikk?" Amy asked me. We were sitting in Jake's living room.

  "actually i think, im going to go home for a few hours, shower up get some clothes and shit. I don't HAVE to stay here right?" I was upset, i loved Wood. She was my best friend, and Jake, but i honestly just wanted to sit in my room and cry. There was no place to go around here to just think.

  "not really, Jake's just worried if it's not the Cullens then if your in the woods you could get hurt." She was worried but i assured her ill call her when i was gonna leave my house and be on my way back to Jake's.

    I was on my way home. I decided to take the long way around the mountain instead of over it. I wasn't really in a rush to get home, but not in a rush to get back to Jake's either. I passed the Cullens drive way. For some reason i stopped. I got out and looked up the long driveway. I havn't heard 'his' voice in a while. I missed him so much. It burned when i thought about him, but it felt like my insides were crumbling every time i laughed and realized i was forgetting him. Maybe it was some soul mate thing, who the fuck knows.

   "i need to hear you" i said out loud to myself. I started walking up the driveway. Maybe it was them, maybe if i go he'll be home or this is the sure place to hear 'him' if they weren't. I figured if i walked it'll give me more time to hear 'him'. I saw a flash from the corner of my eye and looked over. There he was. crouched in a tree. I ran to the tree going to the house and the closer i got the more he just faded away.  When i got to the tree i realized there was nothing there at all. After about 5 or so minutes of walking i was in front of the Cullen house. It looked so, dead. I walked up onto the front porch and peeked inside all of the windows. Its been about 6 or so months sinse they've left. There was nothing. If they left when he was dropping me off how did they clean everything so fast? Did they come back? When i saw the inside of the house i just felt so much pain. I fell to my knees leaning against the front door made of glass. I started sobbing starring at the ground. I eventually got it together and decided to walk around to the back. Walking through the back yard felt so weird. We we're only together for around 4 months and it was the most amazing time of my life. I couldn't believe it was over. About a year ago i was meeting the family in this very back yard, and 'he' was there.  All the memories of our time together. The time he had dinner set out for us, how he declared his love to me, where i scared Emmett shit-less. I scared a vampire. Awesome. I saw my trail leading to where my little screen house was built. After i came back from running from 'him'. As i was walking the trail through the woods to my little spot i was thinking about what i did to him. I left him when he declared his undying love to me. I left him because i didn't want him hurt. The fight with James. I was so angry with him' I couldn't figure out why though. Why was I so angry when im the first one to do it. I got the the screen house and opened the door. It was just like when i left it. The roof was still in one piece even after all the snow, the sides and chairs weren't't warped or anything. It was like they didn't leave. I sat down in my chair and remembered one time specifically there.