“Not now Jake….please” those eyes burnt a hole in my heart, the guilt consumed me for feeling so much for Edward, but the fact of the matter was I could never have Edward like I wanted him, needed him, Jake was the man I would evidentially spend the rest of my life with.

I placed my right hand on top of Jacobs and leant into him. “Soon” I promised him.

The week was long and on lunch break I headed to the local sandwich shop to meet Angela to talk about her wedding as I ran through the door I banged straight into a gentleman “I am so sorry” I gasped as I looked up to see Edward standing there my heart plummeted, my mouth virtually drooling and my legs slightly shaking, fuck he got better looking every single time I seen him.

“Not to worry” Edward laughed.

“It’s really good to see you Bella” Edward whispered as he bent down to my ear – yep the legs were definitely not just slightly shaking now.

I smiled so hard my face hurt and I mistakenly looked into his deep green eyes that had me momentarily paralysed.

“Would you like to have lunch with me and Angela?” I didn’t quite know what else to say.

“I think you know we cannot do that Bella” Edward called while looking down at the ground.

“I know” I almost cried, I felt my eyes fill up slightly and I quickly turned away, I felt Edwards hand grab my chin and pulled my face to look at him directly.

“Please Bella, don’t make this harder for me that it already is” I closed my eyes as I felt them deceive me.

I was crying for the life I am now stuck with, a life I didn’t want to be part of and the man in front of me was a life I wanted to try but knew I couldn’t.

“I wish you knew how much I would love to get to know you outside of all of the drama” Drama, ha if anyone was listening they would not have a clue what drama we were involved in.