“Really?” Bella whispered while lifting her face to see the truth in my eyes and the smile on my face.

“Really” I replied while bending my neck slightly and kissing her.

“So what now?” Bella asked.

“I think it would be wise to continue as we have for the next few months love, for respect for the families” Bella nodded in understanding.

“I have….no, no…..I need to see you still though” I didn’t want to just talk to each other; the fact was I still needed her like air.

“Good” she whispered, her breath was becoming raggered and I saw Bella breathe in my scent, which made me chuckle slightly.

“You are nothing short of amazing Bella Swan”

“And you Mr Cullen are nothing short of perfection”

“Well I am glad you think that, because I am your piece of perfection, there is no getting rid of me now” I warned her.

Bella’s eyes began to glaze over again and then I remembered about Tanya and that fucking stake in the heart pain came back.

“I have to go see Tanya’s parents” I quickly called, they were not aware we have lived sort of separately for the last few months, the truth of it was, we never made love, we barely really spoke other than around people, we cared for one another, that is the truth and yes on some level we loved each other, but we were not in love and we were not really a couple, her heart was Jacobs and mine was Bella’s and if the truth be told, if there was someone in the world I think Tanya would have wanted to die with, I believe right now at this very moment, she would have been happy she got to go with the one she loved, none other than dick head himself –god rest his soul – Mr Jacob Black.

“I understand” Bella called while breathing heavily into my neck – damn it felt good “I won’t say I like the idea, but I understand”

“You cannot be serious Bella?” was she seriously wanting to make love at this moment in time after we had just found out that Jacob and Tanya had died.