Ashley made it to her house and slowly turned the door knob, the frown never leaving her face. The tears in her eyes, never falling but screaming to be let loose. Ashley slowly walked into her kitchen, dragging her feet and grabbed a water bottle from the fridge and walked to the living room. She took a seat on the couch and just stared at the black screened TV in front of her, waiting for some face to pop up and tell her what exactly to do. She had no clue of what was to come. She didn’t know if Paula could really keep them apart. She knew that she would fight as hard as she could to even get a glimpse of Spencer. She didn’t know how far Paula would take and she didn’t want to find out.

Minutes of staring at the black screen, Ashley then heard silent footsteps approach the back of the couch. Ashley looked up to the concerned eyes of her half sister. Kyla took a seat next to Ashley and put her arm around the girl’s waist pulling her close to her so that Ashley could lay her head on her shoulder. Kyla began to rub up and down Ashley’s arm.

Kyla: "What’s wrong?"

Ashley: "Spencer."

Kyla: "Did you two get in a fight or something."

Ashley: "No, it’s her mom."

Kyla: "What happened?"

Ashley: "I was just hugging her and Paula came out and went all crazy on Spencer. And I felt like that was the last time that I was going to see Spencer. It seems like Paula is going to try and keep us away from each other. She just had that look in her eyes, like ‘say goodbye because you’ll never see her again’ and I think she’s for real. I feel like I’ve already lost Spencer. Gawd I just I can’t imagine a life without Spence, she’s everything to me. I need the girl so bad."

Ashley dropped her head in her hands and Kyla tightened the grip around her sister’s shoulder.

Ashley: "I can’t let her keep me from her."

Kyla: "It’s going to be ok Ash."

Ashley: "No it’s not! I need her. You don’t know how much I need her and if her mom pulls us apart gawd I don’t know what I’ll do Ky. That girl she’s everything. She changed me and made me a better me."

Kyla: "You really care for her don’t you?"

Ashley: "Yes! I do fuck and that is why I can’t lose her. Ugh! You should of seen her mom Ky, she was ten miles past the border of psychotic. She’s crazy and I know she was telling the truth. I know she’s going to keep us away from each other. I can’t lose her she means to much to me."

Ashley began to let the worst case scenarios run through her mind. As the thought that she could really in fact lose Spencer sunk into her, she threw herself onto Kyla.

Ashley: "I can’t lose her Ky. I think if I do then I’ll go back to my bad habits."

Kyla: "Shh I’ll keep you from drinking Ash."

Ashley: "No, Ky."

Kyla looked at her questioningly. Ashley began to slowly pull her sleeves up with shaking hands.

Kyla: "Ashley what are you trying to show me?"

Kyla had an idea of what was to come but she didn’t want to believe it. Tears began to swell up in hers and Ashley’s eyes as Ashley began to turn both her wrists over. Kyla gasped at the scars on each of Ashley’s wrists. The clear marks of a pained past. Ashley shut her eyes tight as Kyla ran her fingers along the bumpy scarred skin.

Kyla: "Ashley why would you…"

Ashley: "I don’t know Ky."

Tears were now pouring from each girl’s eyes as Ashley threw herself into an embrace with Kyla. Ashley held onto Kyla for dear life, because she was all she had at the moment. Kyla was shocked at Ashley’s confession but didn’t push it any further, because she knew it would only make matters worse. They just stayed on the couch, to later fall asleep on it, with Ashley atop Kyla, still holding on for dear life, because she feels like and may have lost the one meaning of her life…Spencer.

–I am really not feeling this chapter…to me it sucks and so sorry if it does….but yeah….and sorry it’s been a while this took me forever to write but *sighs* it’s quality i guess….K well I’ll try and post as soon as possible…It is my last week of school …COMMENTS PLEASEEEEE