“Who the fuck are you looking at?” I regreted it right away but of course I had to keep up my facade.  I really wanted to pull her into a hug and tell her how sorry I was.  What was it about this girl sorry…sorry….I havn’t felt sorry in a long time.  She kept her head down and I knew she was trying hard not to cry, but I couldn’t shake these feelings I was having for her and it was making me want to hate her.  She tried to move past me but I caught her by the neck and slammed her up against the doorway I figured maybe if she hated me or said something mean to me than I could get rid of these feelings she was causing.  

“Did they tell you all the horror stories about me yet?”  I whispered in her ear.  I can’t believe I thought this would work but I tried.

“I..uhh…I have heard a few rumors Madam.”  I knew she was upset and I couldn’t bare to put her through anything else I hated that I was like this. 

“Well I am sure they are all true……I am an evil bitch……just remember that and you will stay on my good side.” I smiled at her to try to relieve some of her stress. I let go of her neck and backed up a bit.

“Go ahead and clean…..?” I dont know why and I knew I would probably regret how I felt towards her but I had to know I pointed to her and she told me her name.

“Spencer.”  She said in the most beautiful voice and I had to get her away from me before I took her to my bed and made love to her until I had no strength left.  Make love I can’t believe I even thought that it had been so long since I had thought about love at all. 

“Ok Spencer….go ahead and finish cleaning."

She rubbed the spot on her neck I was just gripping as she walked past me. She cleaned the room suprisingly well for her first day.  She even cleaned my fireplace which was weird because I dont remember the last time anyone did that.

I went to my bed and laid down and watched tv but I couldn’t help watching her work from the distance I could see she had tan skin and since the skirts I chose for the maids were short I could see all the way up her thighs in the back when she bent over they were beautiful.  In fact everything about this girl was beautiful.

I couldn’t get her eyes out of my mind how it felt when she looked at me.  I have never felt a connection like that in my life and then I thought about how I smacked her for doing it.  All she did was look at me.  I am an evil bitch no one could ever love me.

Alicia proved that right.  I loved her more than I have ever loved anyone and she set me up for the paparazzi on a silver platter, she only pretended to love me.  Every time I think about that I promise myself never to let anyone get close to me again.

It was 3 years ago I had been dating her for a few months but she knew I liked my privacy I hated the paparazzi they had finally started leaving me alone and I thought my life was going really good but then one day I took Alicia to a secluded beach and we started kissing and all of a sudden at least 30 of them came out of no where.  I found out later that they paid her to get me where I couldn’t run away and they stood their taking pictures of me with no shirt on with Alicia and she didn’t even care.  Not that I have a problem with my body I have great breast’s but for her to do that to me I never forgave her.

After that day I promised I would never love someone again if no one was close to me than no one could hurt me.  I didn’t realize that my theory on life was about to change in the biggest way.

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Ok that should hold some of you over for a few days.  Stay tuned for Chapter 3 Another look