I looked up from the picture frame over at Bella and my eyes filled with tears. It broke my heart to remember what had happened to her and the whole situation in general. My arms instinctively reached out and pulled her into my lap to have her against me as I closed my eyes.

"Jake what's wrong?" She asked concerned as she moved to try and see my face.

I heard Edward stop moving in the kitchen obviously grabbing his attention too and tried to look at her. "I'm such a coward…" I spoke softly as she cupped my face in her hands and stared into my tear filled eyes.

"Oh Jake." She frowned. We had this conversation many times while I had been in the hospital and I had yet to get over it. I would never be able to make it up to her how I failed.

"You are not to blame for what happened to me. I already told you that." She kissed my forehead and held me in her arms.

"I can't help it Bella. I stood there like a fucking idiot while he…" I growled. "Every time I see you I can't get the look on your face out of my head."

"Jake please…" She begged and I could tell it was starting to upset her having to remember. "He would of killed me if you did anything…" I saw her glance at Edward and I followed her look over to him. He stood there looking completely confused. He knew she had been raped but from the looks of it he didn't know any details or how it all happened.

"I won't let anything ever happen to you again." I told her and it was a promise. She was my best friend and my life, she was more important to me than anything else.

"Thank you." She tried to smile and just settled into my arms as Edward went back to the kitchen. I hoped we hadn't made him feel uneasy. It was hard enough trying to adjust to the fact I was there living in Edward Cullen's house in the first place.

"We should go out sometime this weekend. I haven't been out, well you know in a long time." I laughed trying to make the mood lighter for everyone.