“‘Cos it isn’t ment to be this way, Sara.”

“So many things aren’t meant to be. That really is the lamest excuse for being homophobic I’ve ever heard.” I sighed. “Mom, I’m sorry I really thought that things would have changed by now. But apparently they haven’t, and how do you expect me to come back here, when I know that I’m not wanted here I hoped that you at least could accept my decisions in life.”

“Sara, why can’t you just find a man, marry him and have children, like with Paul?”

“Paul, like with Paul. Yeah that all ended really well.” My voice trembled. “I tried so hard to make it work with Paul, I even convinced myself that I loved him. And with one blow he made me lose everything I ever loved.”

I stormed out of the room, out of the house. I needed to get out of there; I was suffocating in that house, not able to breathe. I sat down in the car, fighting against the tears, I would not show them how much they hurt me.

Chapter 13

Some things never change

Catherine’s POV

I was stunned, sad and furious, my mind was a huge turmoil of thoughts. I didn’t know what to think, what to say, how to react. During the whole conversation, I noticed that Sara’s mother was in an abusive relationship. Maybe she wasn’t abused physically but she sure as ***** was mentally abused. The look in her eyes as soon as she opened the door, the way that she had greeted Sara. The pain in her eyes was replaced by love, happiness and relief to see her daughter again after almost for years. That all changed back the minute Sara’s dad showed up.

Sara’s dad was unbelievable; he was rude and angry, just because his daughter was into girls. The way that he treated his daughter made some pieces of the puzzle fall into the right place. And I knew that I was guilty too, her dad made her feel like she was nothing. He didn’t care about the things that she had achieved in life, and I had made her feel like that too. When she first came to CSI, I was mad because Grissom brought in this girl to do the internal investigation, on Warrick regarding Holly Gribb’s dead. I’d treated her like *****, and I did the same when she couldn’t find Eddie’s murder although I knew that she’d done all she could. I made her feel like she was nothing, like I didn’t care about her. And all that time she had been in love with me.