How the hell did she know what I was thinking? And oh god, her breath on my ear… she called me special! I can’t wait to go to Spencer’s art class next. I walked to class with Madison with a smile on my face.

Chapter 8

“Okay everybody, I know it’s the first day of class and everything and you probably aren’t in the mood to do anything right?” Jon asked the class. He happens to be one of my other good friends too. Oh and I’m in Spencer’s art class, you know…just in case you were wondering.

“Noooooo” the class droned out, but I realized Spencer didn’t say anything and instead looked at me and rolled her eyes which made me smile at her.

“Yea, yea.” he said. “But hey, all you have to do is draw, that’s not that bad right? Okay well, you can draw whatever you want today and I’ll be walking around to look at your work. Kind of get a feel of where you are in your artistic abilities. Oh and my good friend Ashley over there is gonna help me” he said pointing to me, making everyone turn to look at me. I just smiled at them, waved a little and then glared at Jon, making him smile widely in return. He’s lucky I fucking love him. How in the hell am I supposed to know if somebody has artistic abilities? I’ll just go hang around Spencer I guess.

Everybody seemed to get to work quickly, probably trying to do something to get the period to pass a little faster. As I looked at what everybody was drawing I was kind of bored to be honest. Mostly they were either just trying to make little shapes or drawing stupid little stick figures. I tried not to go to Spencer for a little while cause I didn’t want to seem to eager. As I looked at her from across the room I couldn’t help but smile at her. She once had her iPod on and was concentrating on what she was drawing.

“You like her don’t you?” Jon suddenly said from beside me making me jump a little.

“Huh? I don’t know what you’re talking about” I said trying to avoid the conversation.

“Come on Ash, I’ve known you for years now. I think it’s safe to say I know you” he said smiling softly at me.

“I know it’s against the rules or whatever…but Jonny I don’t know how to explain it and I can’t make these feelings go away…plus she‘s like 17 years old. I‘m 21…that’s not even legal! ” I said sighing. I crossed my arms over my chest and turned my attention back to Spencer for a minute.

“Well, personally I say fuck the rules cause well, that’s just me” he said smiling. “Oh and off the record Ash…she’ll be 18 soon” he said, nudging me in the shoulder before walking away.

I stayed where I was and watched as Jonny made his was to Spencer, who was sitting in the back. I watched her tense up as she noticed him walking towards her. She quickly turned the page to a blank one and took on of her ear buds out as he approached. I couldn’t hear what was being said but I didn’t care at the moment. Spencer really didn’t like showing other people her work. I’m not sure why…maybe one day I will get to know though.

I watched as Spencer watched Jonny walk away. I watched as she but her ear bud back in and turned back to her previous drawing. I watched as she lifted her head up and her gaze met mine. I watched as she smiled at me, winking again before turning her attention back to her drawing. I watched her as I let my guard down…as I let all the rules and everything else simply just disappear and my feelings were out in the open with no hesitation of letting them out. They were just there. And I could care less what everybody else thought. The only thing I cared about was what Spencer thought.

Why is she only comfortable showing me her drawings? Why is she winking at me? Starring at me like I’m starring at her? Most importantly….What did it all mean?

tbc….