All of the emotions are rising up inside me.  I can’t think clearly.  Ashley’s lips and tongue are still dancing on my breasts and I can hardly breathe it feels so good.  I need to stop this.  I need to say what’s on my mind.  I pull her face away from my chest with one hand and twist our bodies over with the other. 

I was laying on top of her now, my knee still roughly pressed up between her legs. I was leaning over her, my hair falling all around her face.  I stared into her eyes for what felt like an eternity when i was awaken from my daze by her fingers tracing along my cheek.  I finally realized that she was speaking to me.

"Spence, Spencer.  I know you said to ‘quit acting all concerned and kiss you’ earlier, but you’re really scaring me with that look on your face.  What just happened?  What were you trying to say earlier?"

I leaned in and kissed her again, silencing her.  My hands rubbing down her neck and shoulders, caressing her breasts as she had done mine earlier.  My mind was racing a thousand miles an hour and the only thing I could concentrate on was the beautiful brunette that was half-naked under me.

I knew what I wanted to say.  Correction, I knew what I needed to say, but my vocal chords had frozen and the only part of my mouth working properly was my tongue.  Apparently Ashley agreed that it was working, because I could feel her start to writhe and hear her moaning into my mouth.  It was getting me hotter and hotter, and further and further away from speaking my mind.

I nipped and sucked my way off of her lips and down to the space between her breasts.  Her hands moved to the back of my head, running her fingers through my blond tresses as I teased her more with my tongue.

"Oh god, Spence… I love this so much…"

Though, with those words, I knew she had forgotten about the incomplete sentence I had started earlier, it was those words that brought me back to it.  I felt the water rising into my eyes and I stopped kissing her chest.  I sighed and lowered myself completely onto her, our bare stomachs and chests in complete contact with each other.  I rested my head on her shoulder, facing away.

"Ash, that’s what I was trying to say earlier… I, I love this too."

"Wait a minute, I really don’t get you right now, Spencer.  Look at me."

I lifted my head up, and rested our foreheads together.   Her hands were tracing circles on my lower back.  She gave me a little smirk and said, "Well if you love it so much, why’d you stop?"  I could see the desire build up in her eyes and I hated myself for stopping.  But I just had to.

I had to say this.

"I stopped because I need to tell you something."  I took a huge breath, and I realized that her face was growing stiff with fear.

"No baby," I gave her a soft kiss, "… nothing like that."

"This whole day, waking up with you in my arms, feeling you kiss my forehead at my parents, holding  your hand in the car, kissing you, touching you, no matter what it’s been, it hasn’t been enough.  It hasn’t felt complete."

"Well, Spencer what else can I…"

"Shhh…" I said as I pecked her lips again.

"It hasn’t felt complete because I haven’t been completely honest."  I was whispering now.  She cocked her head to the side, curiously and I smiled as genuinely as I knew how and continued.  "I told you a lie.  I am ready.  I am ready for anything and everything that comes with being with you.  I’m ready to be open, I’m ready to," I got even quieter and blushed as I said this, "I’m ready to make love to you.  But more than anything–and this is the part I lied to you about–I’m ready to love you.  I’m ready to be in love with you."  I kissed her with all the feeling that hadn’t spilled out of my mouth already.

"I am so in love with you, Ashley Davies,"  I softly whispered into her ear…

TBC