“Don’t, Spencer. It’s not alright. I want you. You don’t know how it feels to fall for someone who you can’t have and can’t return your feelings.” She turned away from me, hiding her face behind her glossy, beautiful, brown curls. I scooted towards her and put my arms around her. “Ashley, I can’t say that I know how it feels to want someone you can’t have that can’t return your feelings. But what I do know is that I want to take away all your pain.” I said, cupping her cheek. Ashley turned to look at me again. “Can you, Spence? Can you really take away all my pain?” she whispered. I could see the fear and the pain in her eyes. But there was something else. I could see she had … love? In those eyes as well.  I could no longer deny the urge that had been welling up inside of me ever since this afternoon. I leaned in and kissed her.

                It was electrifying and soulful. Ashley instantly kissed me back, putting her hand behind my neck, pulling me as close to her as possible. I ran my tongue along her bottom lip, biting down gently on it before she opened her mouth, letting my tongue slide in. Our tongues eagerly danced in our mouths together, discovering the taste of one another. I found myself immediately addicted to the taste of Ashley’s mouth.  It tasted sweet, and her lips tasted like that berry lipgloss she has. Unlike Aiden, Ashley wasn’t choking me with her tongue. She was gentle and passionate at the same time, trying to show me how she felt through her kisses. Her other hand ran down my face to my arm slowly. I realized she was beginning to push me down onto the bed slowly. I wasn’t so sure about where this was going to go once we were both lying down on my bed with her on top of me, but I did know one thing: I didn’t want this to stop.

                I felt myself getting more and more turned on by making out with her. I could feel heat rising up in my body and soon I longed to touch her, to feel more of her body against mine. I didn’t think about how I was cheating on Aiden, or how ‘wrong’ this was, that by doing this I was going to eventually put my orientation into question. All I knew was that I was somehow attracted to Ashley as well, and that I wanted to be her right now.  “Mmmhm.. Ashleyyy..” I groaned into the kiss. She had succeeded in pushing me down on the bed completely, and now she was hovering above me, still kissing me.  Finally we ended our heated lip-lock, both of us breathing heavily as a result of being so turned on by making out with each other. I had never done anything sexual with a girl before, but I found that kissing Ashley was definitely going to be one of my favorite hobbies. I smiled up at her and then out my arms around her neck, pulling her down on top of me. I liked how she didn’t crush me with her weight the way Aiden did when he wasn’t being careful. I ran my hands down her back and felt her smooth curves, enjoying the feel of her in my arms. Ashley kissed me neck at first, but then she started sucking on my pulse point, causing me to squirm underneath her and gasp. My heart was racing- every single little thing that Ashley was doing to me was making me want her more and more.