“Michelle’s retarded” I told her

“Ashley…warm-up…” my coach said as I ran onto the field “…we’re batting live today” she said then I ran over to Jamie and we started warming up

“dude you’re never late…” she told me

“I know…it was Brooke…” I told her

“bull shit…you should be looking out for yourself…”

“Jamie it’s not like she’s trying to beat my out…she doesn’t pitch and she was late too…” I told her throwing it at her hand

“shit!” she yelled throwing her mitt off “this is warming up” she yelled

“then stop being a bitch” I told her

“I’m not the bitch” she said then she walked over to my coach “I’m not catching for her…get Katie to do it” she told the coach

“Davies! Get over here” my coach yelled then I ran over to her as Jamie walked off

“yeah coach?” I asked her

“what was that about?” she asked

“nothing…she couldn’t catch it…” I told her

“look…you’re my starting pitcher, and unlike years before you haven’t sat the bench taking notes because we have no one else to start pitching…but you still have to earn it…because if you keep up this attitude and you’re one minute late the rest of pre-season then I swear on my life you will be sitting that bench and I will find another pitcher” she told me “it’s strike two Ashley” she said walking away and I just stood there by myself with my mitt on my hip and the ball sitting in it

“fuck…” I muttered to myself then I took a deep breath and went onto the rest of practice with a huge ass chip on my shoulder. I was contemplating going home this weekend…or just going to see Spencer, because that’s what I needed. I needed to be with the girl that puts the smile on my face…so I went to go talk to my coach the next day

“Ashley…what’s up?” she asked

“um…I’m thinking I’m gonna go home this weekend…” I told her

“why’s that?” she asked

“just to get some air…this whole college thing is overwhelming…” I said

“what’s really bothering you Ash…”

“so much…” I told her “…I just, this bitch I am out on that field coach…that’s not me, and I just need to go home to figure out who I was and I need to be that girl again…”