So Spencer was my neighbour. When I first moved in with my mom, I was just 7 years old and I was going through the "dark" times for kids. Noone talked to me on my first day of school and same went on for a few months. When Spencer walked into my life, my mom walked out on me. Ever since then, Spencer and I got closer to each other and her family was very much like mine. The reason why we were so compatible was because both our moms walked out on us, for the same damn reason. Papa C, Spencer’s dad, is probably the best person that I had met in my life. He could take anything, whether serious or not, and treat it like it happens everyday. I always knew I like girls, I also knew Spencer prefers girls too, I guess that was what lead me to think that Spencer and I had a chance. When we were both 17, we came out to Papa C together. To my surprise, the first thing that came from him was not a simple, "Jesus will send you to hell and you will rot there" or " Two down, 6 billions more to go", it was, "So you guys are each other’s girlfriend?" I wish I could tell him I was. Spencer’s reaction towards that question was out of my expectation, instead of taking it cool, she flipped out and said, "Dad, Ash and I are BFFs, we will never, may I stress, NEVER become girlfriends." My heart immediately shattered into million pieces. However, I did not show that emotion, I know if I had showed it, our friendship is a goner.

I really don’t know why I loved Spencer. She can be pretty stupid sometimes, like, when she says ‘nine’, she would lift up eight fingers or when she tries to pronounce ‘michael’, it often turns out as ‘michelle’. Thinking about it, I guess that’s what makes her adorable.

Even though I said that I will give up on her, but I know in my heart that I will never stop loving her, that I will love her forever until the day I die.

I suppose I’m not any smarter than her….

Because I love a girl who I know will never love me back.

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