“don’t ok…just don’t” then I ran inside and Brooke came running after me and caught up to me when I was getting into Jeremy’s car for a ride home

“Spencer wait!” she yelled

“Brooke please…what you saw…”

“you and Ashley…”

“there’s no me and Ashley”

“maybe not anymore, but there was…”

“Brooke I cant talk about this”

“Spencer, I’m your best friend…talk to me please…let me take you home…”

“Brooke…”

“Jeremy I can take her!” she yelled to him

“you sure?!”

“yeah! Come on…” she said taking me to her car and I sat down in the passenger seat and didn’t say a word…it was quiet till we were clear of Billy’s house

“ok…you need to talk to me”

“no…I don’t”

“why can’t you just admit it? You love Ashley”

“I do not love Ashley”

“yeah you do…you wouldn’t have yelled at her like with such pain in your voice if you didn’t love her”

“look…what ever there was between us isn’t there anymore so just drop it”

“fine geez…”

Then the rest of the way we didn’t say a word and she dropped me off at home and I went straight to bed staring at a picture of Ashley and me…

We’ve been dating for like 3 weeks almost…I cant love her, I don’t believe in love…I’ve had my heart broken too many times…there’s just nothing left.

At like 9 in the morning I woke up and went over Ashley’s because I knew she’d still be sleeping and I wanted to take my stuff back…Kyla was awake though

“hey Spence…are you here to see ash?”

“uh no…I’m here to get my stuff…I figured she’d still be sleeping…”

“um…yeah…you can go up…”

“thanks Ky…” then I went upstairs and opened Ashley’s bedroom door and she wasn’t in her bed…I figured she was in the kitchen now or something…so I just hurried up and took all my stuff, then when I went to reach for one of my shirts I saw Ashley’s Lyrics book and I couldn’t help but look at it…just one page though

“I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side